The pain of being abroad

We were all talking happily and jokingly. Why is it busy, I hung up the phone . Knowing what happens and ! Maybe if that was the last meeting, where would I be separated and !

How I'm bent over. Your birthday was the next day . It was my trick to make birthdays special. This time I wanted to do something special on my birthday . Sir, who doesn't care about his birthday, why is it this time, he was excited from a week ago. He told us many plans to support the school, not only to play baja on birthdays and feed everyone, but also to support the school. So we were all excited . I also had a plan, I wanted to make your birthday special this year.

Mr. who refuses to cut the cake on his birthday, gets angry when doing taxes, was curious himself this time . But he bent us . You left us suddenly. Never to return, never to meet, never to be seen. But the heart is not ready to accept this. He did all the deeds surrounded by all the circumstances. But the heart does not want to accept it at all . Sometimes it feels like you call me by the name you call me . My eyes kept looking for you only in the crowd of people who knew each other.

! I understand the pain of being abroad now. What a misfortune. We don't want to be alienated. Parents who had to be with us due to many compulsions, had to leave the sick body and walk. What does it look like when the circumstances of the family and the country are bound by all the restrictions! The condition of the country, the lifestyle and mentality of the people, the educational, economic, judicial, administrative and social systems are all chasing and there is no option to leave the country and go abroad.

At Tribhuvan International Airport, there are many brothers and sisters like me who have to leave the country every day. But it is not by desire . Due to the condition of the house and the condition of the country, he had to leave the house. Who doesn't want to live with their parents? Who wouldn't want to ? Only expats know the pain of leaving home, village and country for foreign employment. Only the family of that house knows . What does the leader who runs the country based on speeches only know the pain of going abroad? What do they know about the pain of leaving sick parents?

Those who came to make the country are spoiling the country even more . The country's youth are forced to go abroad and sell their labor. Those who talk about what they will make of the country are happy to live on remittances. If only the elderly and children would remain in this country. But like me, there would be many who could not even say let them see their baby for the last time .

! If the Nepali leaders would have put their words into practice, today there would be proper salary and service facility along with employment. If the evaluation was based on work, the number of Nepalis going abroad would be less. If those who lead said that they will change, what will not happen!

Yesterday Nepal used to be bright with Tuki Batti . Now there is only a few percent of electric light. Even though it has been used for thousands of years, there are plenty of resources available. It would have happened only if we had created an environment where we could do something in Nepal. Shame on the Nepalese leadership for insisting on youth migration only for remittances.

We in many Nepalis Painful pain is ironic and excruciating. There is an unfortunate situation of having to go abroad just to meet the more common needs. Baa! I am also in the same crowd. It has been years since the situation changed and we waited to return to our own country. Well, looking at the current situation, that possibility is not seen .

In front of the world, the child's plea was not heard. Maybe even by being a daughter, the society has not changed yet Whether it's a son or a daughter, everyone has the desire to sleep for the last time. Even this society could not understand, there is a thought that it should be thrown away after death. But who can understand the emotional relationship between a child and a father for so many years. Who would understand that we would meet for the last time, with a heavy heart, we thought that we would meet for the last time. But 48 hours after hearing the news of the past, even when I arrived in Nepal, I could not find the physical body. Yes, I have a mother, brothers, two sisters and a sister, but I miss you.

Maybe it must be my bad luck, I would listen to everyone's words and write, maybe I won't write to meet Ba for the last time . Who is to blame, I went abroad for living . Couldn't be together in the end . This is what happened in June! Now all I have is your abstract image and There is nothing but memories. I will always cherish the path you have shown, the education and guidance you have given me. If another woman is found, I will be born as your daughter again. I am saying goodbye without seeing you, without meeting you, without shaking hands. While writing these few letters, I am unable to write more because of the tears coming from the corners of my eyes. Goodbye Ba .

(KC is the secretary of the South Korea branch of the Federation of Nepalese Journalists)