Wrinkled face, she can't sit down and cook, or do any other work. Walking with the help of a stick, she cannot see well even at night. At the ripe old age of 78, she is living a lonely and miserable life, needing support. Devimaya Sunar of Shivraj Municipality-9 Banianbhar became helpless after her two sons were killed in the Maoist armed conflict.

His eldest son Shankar Vick (Ashok) working in the then Maoist army was killed on 14 Jan 059 at the age of 26 years in Khara of Rukum. Less than two years later, Devimaya's youngest son Raju Vick was killed by the government forces at the age of 22 in Gugauli, Kapilvastu. He was a member of the Area Committee and was killed on 16 July 2016 during the discussion of the latest peace talks.

The eldest son was embracing the communist ideology since the Panchayat period. Devimaya's mother said that the police in the village make unnecessary lawsuits, make them suffer, and tell them that they had to raise the voice of rebellion because they were harassed and oppressed by Sahu Mahajan. .

Their ancestral home is Pyuthan and they migrated to Baniabhar in 049 . Mother Devimaya said, "A son who doesn't tolerate even a little bit of pressure and fear must have joined the Maoists at that time." No contact at home . I thought it would be fine. While being the platoon vice commander.' 

"During the Maoist war, rumors spread throughout the village that the eldest son had been killed." When the noise reached my ears, I couldn't do anything, I fell on the ground . In a day or two, when the person in charge of the party brought the news, I felt as if I had fallen from a cliff,'' Devimaya said, 'Death is not good for anyone . I sat down heartily . Even though the elder one is gone, I kept my mind that the younger son Raju is there.' Later, she told that the younger one also joined the Maoist movement due to the influence of his brother. Devimaya couldn't contain herself when she told the story of how Raju was taken and killed by the army in the sugarcane field because he was also a Maoist.

After losing both his sons, his daily life has become difficult . "It's not that there is no family," she said, "but it's as if it doesn't exist now." During the Maoist war, around 057/58, the eldest son Shankar had a progressive marriage with Uma Bhujel from Kapilvastu. Both of them used to work together in the party . Their daughter was born in 060 . She is now 21 years old. She has also been living in Chandrauta for 3 years and teaches in a private boarding school in Balapur.  After

, the Maoist party made Uma the first Constituent Assembly member from proportional. After becoming a member of the Constituent Assembly, Uma got married again. A son and a daughter have been born from there. After getting married again, she started living separately. Now she has gone to India for employment. The children live in the moon. However, it has nothing to do with mother-in-law Devimaya . Devimaya's husband Chakra Bahadur died in 063 while working as a wage-labourer at a petrol pump in Assam, India. On the other hand, Devimaya's own 48-year-old daughter Mamta also lives separately. She teaches in a private boarding school nearby. Her unmarried is . 

There is no one to help old age . She said that sometimes after 15 or a month, her daughter and granddaughter (eldest son's daughter) would come and clean the house and come back after taking a bath. No source of income. It is becoming difficult to cook. There is a tin-roofed house with 2 rooms and a verandah with raised walls made of raw mud.

During the rains, the soil wall weakens and water enters the house . It makes it easy to move around the house . Land - no land . I had 12 katthas of land, sold 10 katthas in 068 and built a house for 3 lakh rupees. I sold the remaining two paddocks and paid off the loan of 150,000 rupees for taking treatment for my back," she said. It has been a while since he got a loan and got surgery for 3 lakhs . But I can't sit on the floor. I can't get up if I sit.' 

She said that after taking a loan of 1.5 lakhs from microfinance, she still has to pay 66,000 rupees. She said that 4,000 monthly social security allowances are running the expenses. "Grief is difficult when you are sick". There are two plots of land. I have also given that land to Andhi on the condition of giving 50 kilos of rice and 3 liters of oil annually,' she said. 

She said that now it is a problem to pay water and electricity bills every month. Expenditure is twice as much as income. It is becoming difficult to avoid spending . Whom to grieve, who to tell,' she said, 'Happiness can be hidden . But no matter how much you do, you can't hide the pain.'

She expressed her grief that she did not get relief even though she received many congratulations and letters of honor in the name of her martyred son. They call the program. One thousand/five hundred is given and a meal is taken . The state has also ridiculed . No help has been given,' she said. If you don't eat it, you will get sick . It doesn't even take a long time to make food.'

In memory of her sons, she has kept a watch that her son wears. When I remember, I hold it and express my heart. That watch was also found by his friend while fighting with the army in Rukum and brought back three months later . That's the only sign left now," she said.

Sometimes the Communist Party of Nepal led by Netra Vikram Chand brings pulses and rice. She told that now the Chand group is going to build a two-room concrete house and a toilet. "The brick wall was raised last June." Now the tin roof, cleaning and windows are left. "Now I'm going to die moving to this new house," she said.