Artist Yaman Shrestha was evoking the memories of his mother in 'Pakhnus hai, me zamanan che'. Remember, poem number 1.

'Mom, what kind of mother are you?

My mother is bigger than the earth.'

While studying in class three, on the day of Bhanu's birth anniversary, he wrote this poem. At that time he did not know that the earth is hard. When he traveled abroad, he realized, 'This is terrible.' One day, when he was living in America, he got the news, 'Mother was diagnosed with cancer.' Big or mother?'' Mother taught Yemen, 'Emotions are important in the world.' 

As the saying goes, 'after twelve years the river returns' happened in the family of Madankrishna and Yashoda. He returned to Yemen after twelve years. After 6 years of her return, Mother went on an eternal journey. The son who left the country came back for his mother. But mother Yashoda, who left the world, never came back. In the sad days after mother's passing, Yaman wrote poem number 2:

I could not touch your feet for the first time this year

I could not hug you by saying Happy Mother's Day

I understand more and more the love and affection you have given

It is so much , I didn't want to handle it in June. On the first day of the new year, he recalled old memories. The same Farasili mother kept coming to the memory, warmer than the sun of Pus. The boy, who was going to Siddhartha Vanasthali on the back of a bicycle to enroll in class 1, got his leg stuck in the wheel. He fell and got hurt. In a hospital bed when he regained consciousness. Others were trying to stop him from crying. Mother Yashoda arrived with a smile. Hugging her son tightly, she said, "Cry, father, cry." Then what do you want? The child Yemen cried out loud. 

Pashupati Aryaghat, smoke was billowing on the banks of Bagmati. Relatives were teary-eyed at the farewell of their mother. Mother's loving hands, warm arms, smiling face were all burning. The others said, "Don't cry father, don't cry" while shaking Yaman who was crying. Yaman held back all his tears. For many days, a cloud of discord hung over his face. He lived in Ukusmukus. On Mother's Day of the same year, Yemen flipped through the photo album, on that day, it seemed as if the mother whispered, "Cry, father, cry." Yemen's face burst into tears. He cried out in agony. After crying for a long time, the body became lighter, the mind calmed down. And wrote poem number 3 :  For the first time this year, I didn't get to ask if you were hurt

I didn't get to hug you saying Happy Mother's Day

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Mother Yashoda was an employee of Sanchaya Kosh. She retired after working for the same organization all her life. She used to read books in her spare time and apply them in practice. Yaman remembers, 'That's why Mami knew the grammar of life.'

Two children of Madankrishna and Yashoda. After Yemen, sister Sarana. Madankrishna, one of the Mah Jodi, was a busy artist of that time. He would have reached the office by five o'clock. He used to come home at noon to have dinner. Yaman and his sister spent most of their time with their mother. Mother taught them enough skills to survive life. It seems, "Mother was also a skilled trainer." From a young age, Yemen used to clean the plate from which he ate his food. Cooked sweet dishes. Sometimes, when her friends came home, Yashoda used to say in appreciation, 'This Yemen cooks such sweet tea, if you eat it, you will wince.' Madankrishna and Yashoda had an inter-caste marriage. Yashoda did not pass away till later. But after the birth of Yemen, the situation became easier. He stayed at his uncle's house in Kupandol for 5 years. Hence Yaman got to closely observe both Newar and Brahmin culture. In the house there is sweet singing of father, sister and Yaman. Yemen adds, 'We are not the only ones. Mami used to sing too. When Yashoda was alone, she used to hum a song in her own tune, 'Flying and walking like a cloud, a cloud is a cloud...'  •

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Yemen passed SLC in 2048. He still laughs at his mother's words when he went to study on campus. On that day, mother pocketed more money than any other day. Yaman asked, "Why so much money?" His mother's funny answer was, "You will go to college now." After going to college, girls may become friends too. Never pay the girls for lunch, pay yourself.' He decided to study in India. Parents sent. I missed home very much during my stay in Pune, India. Wrote a love poem remembering Baa. His friends said, "What if you write after remembering your girlfriend?" He came back to Nepal to study for graduation. Be it in school or college. Because of Ba's fame, Yemen had always been disciplined. He was afraid that his reputation would be damaged if he walked on the wrong path. 

Yemen never lacked. He wanted to buy a guitar. However, he considered it difficult to ask for money. Never asked to buy the baby. One day Madankrishna took him to Sikkim. That day, he saw his son's interest in the guitar and bought it. There was a clamor to do something with Yemen's interest in music. At that time Yemen wanted to buy a keyboard. Mother knew what was going on and gave the money. After introducing the keyboard, Yemen became self-sufficient. He used to make commercials, jingles. He used to pay his own college fees with the money he earned. One day, Madankrishna stopped taking out thousands of notes. He didn't take it. Then Madankrishna jokingly said, 'Li na li. Again, when you grow up, you will say that my father did not give me money, I did everything myself.' There he felt a lack he had never felt before. A common man had to struggle. He first worked at a gas station in Texas. But the salary was stopped in the first month. I was shocked,'' says Yaman, "then an acquaintance's uncle got me a job at a hotel in Maryland." He started working there on night duty. He used to wash clothes all night. He worked in the same hotel for 12 years and became a manager. During the conflict, Yemen met Rinku Bajracharya in America. "We were together in America's suffering. We both rowed the boat of life together,'' he remembers. • •

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Yemen has been waiting for a green card for a long time. When he got the green card, there was no good news from Nepal. Parkinson's for the child and cancer for the mother. Yemen went crazy. After Ba asked whether America is big or mother, his heart was no longer attached to that country. However, it was not easy to leave. Daughter's future and wife's desire. He consulted his wife about going to Nepal. He thought, 'The decision is not easy.' But his wife said, 'Then I will go first. And you will come after 6 months.''He remembers being happy, 'If he didn't say OK...' Madankrishna said on the phone, 'Babu, packing?' '

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For treatment, Yashoda was sometimes taken to Thailand and sometimes to India through Nepal. Yemen spent most of the days after returning to Nepal in the hospital. Daughter Greeshma was unable to go home as soon as she returned from school. He should have been brought straight to the hospital. She used to do everything from lunch to housework at the hospital. This scene repeated itself continuously. Yaman was worried at that time, 'As a son, I made the right decision, but when I thought about it as a father, did I do injustice to my daughter?' One day Greeshma said, 'Daddy, I will be like you later.' Yaman did not understand. Asked, 'What do you mean, father?' Greeshma added, 'You will also become old later. The way you look at your parents. I also look at you in the same way.''Yaman was moved by his daughter's words. I thought, 'I did not do wrong, I did right.'

The daughter grew up in the arms of her grandparents. She came to know about her grandfather's fame. Art followed. She began to love not only English, but Nepali language and words. "She learned manners, she learned responsibility. Learned love,' says Yaman. Madankrishna in his book 'Mahko Ma' wrote the story of son and daughter leaving America. After reading, Greeshma asked her grandfather, 'Is my name here? My daughter is now in Paris for graduate studies. He does not want to live in Paris, nor America. Ba says, 'I will return to Nepal after I finish my studies.' He felt bored. He used to come to take hundreds of photos with Ba. No one knows me. I thought what a life,'' he remembers. This is what he told his mother. Mother gave courage, "Don't do art too." She said, "Who cares about being the son of Madankrishna?" Mother gave the example of Indian artist Denny Denzongpa and said, "First, people used to tell him what role he played." He used to say that if I don't play, others will. Whatever comes to you, play, rehearse. The audience watches. Mother's inspiration gave Yaman energy. Together with Kedar Ghimires, he made the teleserial 'Khaskhus'. They made this teleserial up to 65 episodes. Every part he would bring to his mother first and show it. Yashoda slapped and laughed. Sometimes he used to sing songs, sometimes he played the guitar. Mother was an inspiration to son and mother to son. •

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• Yashoda had colon and lung cancer. She was suffering from cancer. Once at Sunakothi house in Lalitpur, Yashoda had a sudden difficulty. He had to be taken to the hospital. To get down from the room above. But Yashoda's legs did not move. Yaman carried Yashoda inside the car. Yaman looked at his mother's grim face. And said, 'Mommy, can I make you laugh? I feel like I'm going to love mummy now.' Yashoda laughed freely after listening to her son's words. Seeing his mother laughing during that agony, Yaman also laughed in the same way. Then the vehicle was driven to the hospital. Yashoda left the house laughing and never came back.  •

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Yaman was sitting with Deepakraj Giri, Kedar Ghimire and Jitu Nepal working on the script of 'Chakka Panja 3' at Gokarna Resort. Kedar arrives to pick up Yemen in the hospital. Kedar made Yashoda laugh again in the hospital bed. "Mummy laughed for a long time, then I came out holding Mummy's hand," remembers Yaman. Deepakraj and Kedar got a call while sitting in Gokarneshwar while writing the script of a comedy film. Along with the phone, Yemen saw their faces darken. They turned around and said, 'It's hard for mummy.' By the time she came to the hospital, the mother had changed her clothes. • •

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Yashoda sometimes comes in dreams. In the dream, he is eating with his mother, gossiping. When he wakes up, he is fed up with Vipana. The dream is true, it was the mother. While in the cancer hospital, one memory with my mother keeps coming back. Yemen had ringworm on its feet. There was no cure even after taking medicine. The mother, who was battling cancer, was more pained by the small wound on her son's leg. Yaman used to hide his legs. Mother worriedly said, 'Well, see the legs.'