Age says to chant God's name, condition says to keep working, I am old no matter what I do, there is no happiness.
What you should know
In the beginning, time passed by understanding life. As I grew older, I began to understand the hardships that life has to endure. However, the more you understand life, the deeper it will be.
Every morning when you open your eyes, new desires, dreams and plans are in front of you. All day long, he struggled to fulfill that desire, after evening, not only the night - life itself seems dark . However, after taking birth, one has to do many deeds. There is no life on the days when karma is left.
Don't stop working until you live . Again fate and what will happen next, who has seen and ? What to do after birth to death? There is no constitution of life to tell what not to do.
Since I was young, I learned to be sad because I grew up in sorrow. The rest of the life is to be spent in hardship. There is no prediction of what will happen tomorrow. Now in the family there are son-daughter-in-law, granddaughter, wife and I . The family is small . However, it takes about 35,000 per month for food. If you stay on rent, the monthly expenses will be 8 thousand Besi. Sons and daughters earn and run the household expenses . I also sell paan because it is safe to do dangerous things in old age . I don't earn a lot from that, but if I can help 4/5 thousand a month, it's a big thing . Now I am 79 years old. It has not become a more relaxing environment. It's sad, but who to tell ? Rich sons and daughters-in-law have earned by working.
I was born in Palpa. Madi is very beautiful. That's where I got to know Akshar in my childhood . I didn't read many articles. After growing up, the responsibility pressed . And I entered India to earn. Earned a little after working in India for about 30 years . Madi had an ancestral house. The son left there and sold it and came here after his father told him to go to Terai . Initially I bought a house in Bhairahawa . Stayed there for some time. Later the son also sold the house there . Don't panic. Why sell ? what happened ? Don't know anything . I have had heart problems for many years . Medicines worth 2 thousand per month are required . I am happy that my wife is not sick. I have been running a pan shop for 4 months to collect even though the same medicine is spent.
I come at 6 in the morning and open the shop . Pan eaters, school goers buy dalmoth, dhungar and sweets . It has become more time-consuming than earning. I will open the shop till 8 pm . Age says stay at home . However, how could I be confused by sitting at home! I started operating the shop after buying a wooden tank shop and investing about 20,000 because I had to work. I sit on the sidelines all day . It is not a shop where people keep coming. Being on the side of the road, passengers enter . They buy, they gossip . I read the Bhagavad Gita to pass my free time in the shop, I try to memorize the verses .
I never imagined that I would make paan and sell it. I reached Banke around 2052 while looking for a job . There some people came up with the idea of running a grocery store . And I started working . The people there taught them how to make pan. That skill learned at that time has come into use at this age .
I wish I could go to pilgrimage in my old age! I would have gone if I had money! If you had money, you would have had the wisdom to know what to do. No money, didn't even know how to go to the pilgrimage. Age says to chant God's name, condition says to keep working, no matter what I do to the old man, there is no happiness .
presentation : Sanju Paudel
