I came to the capital from Rautahat in search of work. Seasonal business has become my livelihood. Now I am making a living by selling kafal in Dalo. I am 58 years old. We are filling the stomach of a family of eight with the money earned by selling Kafal.

The family is not in the same place . I live on a tin roof in Kalanki . The rest of the family members are in Rautahat. I can't pay the rent to stay in a nice room . Tahoro is the best because it is cheap. 

I arrive at Kalimati from Kalanki around 5 am every day . After buying Kafal, I will go on foot to Greenland, Tokha through Samakhui with a bucket. It is cold in winter and very hot in summer. Sometimes I even take a bus when I'm bored. If you walk, you will save 30 rupees. I sell fruits according to the season .

In the season of kafal, kafal, or almonds and strawberries are sold . I don't want to cook and eat because I leave the room early . Eating out costs a lot of money . That's why I don't eat anything outside. When I feel hungry while walking, I eat tea biscuits . Usually breakfast is tea biscuits . In the evening, when you reach your room, you are very hungry. I will cook and eat sweatsuit as soon as I go. 

Rautahat has a wife, two sons-daughter-in-law and a grandchild. Two daughters are married. The younger son is studying in eight. The eldest son turned 21. We were happy that he chose the marriage by himself . But now it is getting stuck in the Kulat and it is stressing. I remind you not to do this. On the contrary, it starts reminding me . When my son earns and gives me food, I myself am jumping with a bucket . You can't even say it's hot when you're carrying a pot. I was sad that my son would do well. On the contrary, he tries to beat us by drinking alcohol. He tries to beat his own mother . What can be more sad in life! What did I do, what happened now? I don't understand.

He went abroad after taking a loan from a villager but had to return due to illness. After coming to Nepal, I paid a loan of two lakhs by doing goat, buffalo and seasonal business in Kathmandu. Now the daughter's debt is to be paid. Now kafal is not sold on rainy days . When there is no business, the mind becomes bad . Expenses are expenses. House rent is 3,000, gas cylinder is 2,000, oil, dal-chalam is the same expensive. 

In Rautahat, the Jahan family has acquired other people's farms . However, that product is not enough rice to eat at home, from where to send me! If you don't give money to drink alcohol, your son will throw pots and fight. The money sent from here does not have an environment to eat deliciously. So I will send it in 10/12 thousand months so that my son will not know. . Seeing the elder's behavior, the younger son will become more stressed. 

Don't sleep when you remember the loan of 10 lakhs incurred during the marriage of your daughters . It seems that life only hurts me. It's been 2 years since my son started taking medicine due to high blood pressure . His wife wanted to visit Kathmandu. But what to do, life is turning itself around. In my old age, I dreamed of enjoying the family, playing with my grandchildren and rocking them, all of them are now wasted .

For now, my only dream is that my son gets better and that he can take care of his children and wife well . If that was the case, my wife and I would be stress-free. In front of the children's future, the loan will also look small. But it would have been a pleasure to be able to pay someone else's debt. Sometimes carrying a caravan, sometimes carrying peanuts on the shoulder, life ended . Running in the Sahariya crowd, you don't know when your life will end if you don't get tired.