A mother who is always proud to see her daughter's name and photo in a magazine, what will she think if she sees herself one day? Female cricketer Sita Rana Magar says, "At first you might be shocked." Motimaya Rana Magar does not express her happiness in words, nor does she "share" her sadness. However, children do not need any words to understand their mother's feelings. She can easily reveal the pains hidden in the lines of her mother's face.

Sita, who is narrating her mother's story, is making a possible guess at this moment, 'When mother reads herself in the magazine, her eyes may become blurred.' Motimaya hardly knows that her daughter is so moved by remembering her mother. She knows that, 'My daughter is tough.' Motimaya is familiar with the nature of her daughter who sometimes teases her and sometimes gets angry. But does she sound so gentle about herself? "He will know that I am so humble only after reading," she says with mixed feelings of happiness. 

It has been years since Sita took to the cricket field and started bowling and batting. But the mother who struggles to send her daughter to the same field knows only two things about cricket, 'or lose or win?'The final result is what she hears while her daughter is watching on television. After that result, you will know whether Motimaya is happy or sad? What about your loss? The daughter's loss shows the mother so much. 

if you win? Pearls of happiness fall in Motimaya's eyes.

At this moment Kohlpur is steaming with heat. And Sita is thinking of Baa. She calls from Kathmandu and says, 'Don't come and stay here all summer.' Baama doesn't agree. Kathmandu cannot be dearer to them than Kohalpur. Instead, she spends the whole day there when APF gives her leave. She listens to the worries of her aging mother. Motimaya now desperately wants to see two things. Younger daughter's marriage and Miley daughter's children. Seeing their mother's great concern, the sisters laugh. And keep teasing the mother. Sita remembers and says, "Mother's worries are also different according to the age of the children!"

She turns the pages of life. The occasional sighs of the mother are heard in those pages. Ba Bishnu Bahadur was in Nepal Army. Mother, sister Tara and Sita at home. Tara was studying in a government school. The financial situation of the house did not improve. However, a determination grew inside Motimaya, "I can't do it for the elder, but I will teach boarding school for the younger." Motimaya started making and selling alcohol at home. The door of boarding school opened for Sita with the strength of that income. 

On reaching that school, Sita grabbed not only a pen, but also a ball and a bat. One day, the principal of Greenpeace Secondary School told Sita, who was playing football, "If you don't come to cricket training this evening, you will be beaten." She went to cricket training because she was afraid of being beaten by the principal. From that training, Sita realized, 'I am a left-hander.' Incidentally, being a left-hander in cricket is beneficial. The cricket journey that started from there never let Sita look back. It seems,  "I would never have been on the cricket field if my mother had not taken care of the yard of the boarding school," Sita remembers her mother with reverence. 

Sita's batch is the first women's cricket batch in Nepal. Nepal's former captain LB Chhetri started women's cricket from Banke. Plan International supported him. School level competition started from Nepalgunj. Sita, who was playing with the school, was distracted by one thing. Ba was not the only one in the game. Ba used to think, 'Girls who play are not considered good by the society.' The mother stood firm to protect her daughter's wishes. "Because of me, my father and mother fought many times," Sita remembers these days. 

Sita used to leave home to study with her friend. And she used to go to the field for practice. One day the mother went to the maternal house in Bardia. Father was at home. At that time, he joined Banke's team for the game. Sita calls her mother and tells her to remind her. But where do you think? On the contrary, he was angry. "The manager sir sent the father only after he said that his daughter plays well," Sita recalls. Because of the

game, father and daughter got into a heated argument. That was the incident after giving SLC. One day the father searches for his daughter. After not seeing it, they are furious. As soon as the daughter comes home, she cries angrily. I was also angry. What did you say to Ba,' Sita says, remembering that awkward moment, 'Then I decided to leave home.' When the daughter made her decision, the father began to melt. However, Sita was not in the mood to remember even when reminded. "Bale himself stood in line and took out the SIM card along with the mobile phone," she said. On the day of departure, the mother's eyes were full of tears. She came to Kathmandu on impulse. But slowly the homesickness began to haunt him. One day is too much. In the middle of the night, she cried with her mother on a phone call. The mother said in a panic, "Don't worry, he will come tomorrow to get Ba." Even after playing three international matches, Ba was not liked. But he was shocked when he started to be known by his daughter's name in the village. He used to watch TV, his daughter was watching. He used to look at the newspaper, the name was coming. One day after winning an Under-19 match, Cane gave all the players 10,000. She reached home and handed that money to her father. "After handing over the money, Ba looked at me and cried," says Sita. Now the father is most interested in his daughter's game. Even if the daughter does not play or loses, she hears comforting voices on the phone.

Since then, the mother not only supported her daughter's game, but also abandoned it. The importance of the gold that mothers carefully guard is understood by them. But what is bigger than a daughter's dream? When Sita joined the academy in Kathmandu, she had no money to buy things. Motimaya took off the gold she was wearing in her ears and sold it. Sita's eyes filled with the fact that her mother was fulfilling her dream by selling gold. She vowed to herself, "One day I will buy gold bigger than this for my mother."

Around 2014, during the Asian Games, the board of Korea took Sita along for the game. His salary was 3 lakhs in three months. Which she never imagined. As soon as she got the money, she remembered the vow she had made in her heart. Before coming home, she sent money to her sister and asked her mother to buy a gold bangle. Didi bought and kept it so that her mother would not know. When Sita reached home, she gave her mother a 'surprise'. "Seeing that, mother shed tears of joy," says Sita. Before going to Korea, the mother vowed to Sita in a temple. After her daughter returned, Motimaya went to the temple where she vowed with her daughter. 

Motimaya reared chickens, reared goats. She used to do the housework by herself, she used to help her sister. She always kept Sita happy. Sita used to hold a book and a copy in her hand whenever she had to do any work. Motimaya never complained about her daughter not working. Instead, she would send her daughter to the neighboring house to teach her. When going to school to get the results, the daughter's progress details probably gave a coolness to the mind. She used to return through Pulkit. 

One of the advantages of sending a mother to boarding school is the language. Sita realized this only when she went to play a game in Malaysia. There were other friends who were not comfortable with the English language. She could interact. "Even then, I felt that I could speak English today because of my mother's painstaking teaching," says Sita.

Sita was a bowler. But one incident inspired him to become a batter.

In 2009, Sita did not make it to the Nepali team in an ACC tournament held in Malaysia. When the players who have played two international tournaments were not invited to the camp, the tide was lost. The pain of not being in the team made the mind restless. What will be the effect on the father who is proud of his daughter playing cricket? Remembering that, Sita started shaking. She thought, 'My cricket career is gone.' But Sita turned that pain into strength rather than weakness. After that she started going to the cricket training center regularly. There she got strong support from Gyanendra Malla, Sudhir Maharjan and others. She worked hard for a year. "After that hard work, I came straight to batting," says Sita. Then she joined APF. “Joining AFF turned my passion into a profession,” she recounts.

Sita has been on hiatus for the past few months due to an injury to her right leg. Meanwhile, he missed two trips. She told this to Baa. 'Father is worried and told mother. Mother called and apologized,' says Sita. Sita gets emotional at times seeing her mother's endurance. Sometimes there are various tensions in family matters. The father calls and tries to tell his daughter. “They have their own stress,” interrupts the mother. You will not suffer more.' 

rather cries alone. Younger sister Seema has seen her mother cry from time to time. Motimaya is suffering from diabetes. Sita is now saddened by her mother's words.

wanders undetected through time. Looking back, what Sita regrets is from her own nature. "Why didn't I give time to Baama?" she gets emotional remembering her teenage days. Now Sita wants to reduce the worries of her aging father. And I want to travel with him.