I don't think it's my fault for being born on this earth. But, looking at the suffering I've been going through to survive, it seems like a sin. I had 90 percent vision impairment since birth. I was born in Bungal Municipality-1, Bajhang. Getting treatment in that remote place was like finding a god. Even a small injury in the village wouldn't be treated. How can we get eye treatment in such a situation?

My parents also didn't know where to take me for treatment! My father had to keep walking for work, while my mother took care of the house and four children, so I couldn't get treatment. If I had been treated, would I have been able to see this beautiful world clearly? This question arises in my mind. Now I see blurry. Even after I knew, I tried treatment, but it didn't heal.

I couldn't even study because I was blind. There was no school for the blind in the village. I see blurry, but I don't recognize objects and people. I find out by looking for money. No matter what my physical condition is, I have to feed my stomach. That's why I am now selling goods in the villages. Harpik. I deliver incense and glass cleaning products to every house. Nowadays, blind friends like us are working here to earn a living. That is why it is very difficult to sell goods even when reaching door to door. Some people buy goods to show love and encouragement.

That is, the compulsion to beg for blind friends has now gone. Now they are self-reliant and earning a living by doing business, singing songs and doing various types of labor. In the course of their business, they have reached various settlements from east to west. Many people also encourage us by seeing us working and eating. I am happy that the way society views us is changing.

I am happy that the way society views us is changing. I am now 42 years old. I have been married for only 6 years. I have a 4-year-old daughter and a 2-year-old son. My wife, children and parents are still in the village. Two brothers have separated, two sisters have married and gone to their own homes. Now I live in Narayangadh, Chitwan. There is not much farming at home. There is a garden. We have to buy and eat.

The children are small, their medical treatment and needs cost seven to eight thousand a month. Some of the money is spent on themselves. It is very difficult to save. It costs four to five thousand to go home, so I only go home during Dashain and Tihar. I would like to go home every three months. However, I cannot go due to lack of money.

I talk on my mobile to relieve my family's distress. In the Terai region, it is very hot in the summer, so it is difficult to work and even travel around the villages. When it gets cold again in the winter, it is very difficult to go to the interior to do business. I walk ten to twelve kilometers in a day.

But still, I am working to earn a living. A person from a poor family should not expect much. I only wish that my children do not get sick until they grow up and start their own businesses. But I am struggling for myself and my family without losing courage.