There is a house in Dasharatchand Municipality-4 Gothlapani Bazar. Even if you have a house, it is not enough to earn and give. That's why in my old age I sit on the side of the road and grind gravel. It has been 11 years since I lived like this. The stove is lit in the house in the evening and in the morning just by pounding the gravel throughout the day.

I have a son . If it was only me, I would not have eaten, but I cannot see my son starving. That is why I am making a living by pounding gravel on the side of the road near Baitadi headquarter. It feels easy to sit down and pound gravel. I can't do difficult-good work . Those who have strength in body do labor. I can't even do that now.

I am now 73 years old. Arms get tired while using the whip, the soul melts, it seems that I will spend the whole day on this road with the help of this whip till the end of my life . I'm not even as strong as before, I can't collect stones from around and bring them. Sakinasaki must also be carried . I have 3 sons, daughter-in-law, grandchildren. They have all gone on holiday. It has been three years since the youngest's wife took the grandchildren and lived in the family. He has to take care of the younger one whom he has loved since childhood.

For several years, I carried goods of traders from Jhulaghat on foot . Later, when the car started moving, the task of carrying the goods was stopped. Even now, if you could bring goods from Pari (India) in a bag, you would be able to make a living . Can't . Now I can't even walk up and down . My family's breadwinner was a herdsman before, now he is a contractor .

I will come as soon as the sun appears in the morning . I have breakfast and bring food to my younger son. Sometimes I bring myself bread for lunch . Sometimes I leave just like that, on days when I don't bring bread, I drink water to quench my hunger . My support throughout the day is this one umbrella, even if the sun shines, even if it rains, this is why it is poured.

The daughter-in-law has filed a divorce case in the name of her younger son. The younger son used to drive the contractor's tractor. He has been living at home since he got a hip ailment a year ago . A few days ago, he fell down from the bottom of the house and got injured. I didn't have the money to go to the hospital, so I got treatment at home. If the ballast laying contractor gives the money, he has to be taken to the district hospital . It was written like this in Bhagya . After my death, how will my son eat, this is the worry. 

Even those who buy ballast do not pay on time, one day we will starve without getting money to buy rice . All day long I can grind only one stone . It comes to 80 rupees. This is not enough to buy vegetables. You have to wait for the festival to eat delicious food. Even during the festival, there is no earning if you stop pounding the gravel . Sometimes there is no money to buy a hammer to beat the gravel . 

In the rainy season, the ballast is not sold, so I keep it frozen . In the winter it is sold . I am a patient of 'piles'. The doctor said that an operation should be done. They say that there is no treatment at the district hospital. There is no cost to go to the end, she has not even seen the hospital. 

Tantlapur It hurts a lot to sit and work in the sun. There, the daughter-in-law called the court. Holly thought that she would eat well after divorce. There is a house in the capital. Her husband passed away when the children were young. Brought up a son from Jhulaghat. After getting married, they got away .