They say small family, happy family. But that statement does not seem to agree with our family. Despite being a small family, they have to face many hardships just to make daily living.

My mountain home is Dadeldhura . We migrated 16 years ago and came to Mahendranagar in Kanchanpur because it would be easy for two children to feed, one grandparent and children's education. Now we are living here by building a small house. Now I have a husband and two children . 

Now I am the only earner in the family . It has been 15 years since he started selling fruits by selling fruit in Mahendranagar. I am supporting my household expenses by selling fruits. From morning to evening, the same thousand to 1500 rupees are earned by crying thela . If there was always this kind of income, our days of furmas would also come. Sometimes, like coming empty-handed in the morning, you have to return empty-handed in the evening. 20,000 monthly income. Some month it reaches 25 thousand. But there is no business like before. 

Many young people here have gone abroad. They frequently go to India to work. There are only elders and children in the house . They cannot come to the market area to buy goods. When there is no movement in the market, where will the people who buy fruits come from? Most of my money is spent on food and children's school fees . Then for them clothes, small household expenses . There is no land for farming except for one farm. Everything must be bought and eaten. By God's grace, I have taught my children in boarding school even though I worked day and night. Son's school fee only 6000 and daughter's 3000. 

Mother-in-law lives in the mountains. Both people understand the old age allowance . It is followed by the same allowance which is equal to the rate of 12,000 in three months. I took a loan of 10 lakhs from the bank while building the house. Now we have to pay its monthly installments. It would be very easy for me if that bank installment is over . All the money I earn will be spent . Earning is on the one hand, children look for what others have seen . Even if they can't fulfill what they said, it hurts a lot . They have to do what they say, even if they close their eyes. 

In today's expensive times, a small amount of money is not enough . I save the little money I earn for my children's marriage. How much money would have been collected by 100, 500! But it is my mother's heart, I am suffering so much for them. Father doesn't earn anything, tomorrow I have to do everything . Even if I don't eat, I save some money by cutting expenses . Money is insufficient while running household expenses . At that time, I avoid the problem by fighting with the neighboring sisters . All the responsibility of the family is on my head . 

Sometimes, when there is a big problem, it is not even easy to understand . At that time, there is a lot of worry. I get depressed about what to do. It feels like leaving everything and dying. When I am very worried, I like to talk to someone to make my mind lighter . But there is no one to understand. I don't want to be able to dress and eat well like others, to wear gold jewelry. That's right - I haven't had to sit naked and hungry yet. I am satisfied with that .