I am about to turn 50 now. The age has only increased. Life is a downward journey. Life is like the water of Karkala! Can never be made as expected!

Now, I worry more about my daughter's future than my own situation. Although my mother-in-law is from Lamjung district, I lived in Kathmandu with my maternal uncle and Maiju from the age of 13. After spending about one and a half lakh rupees, I also started a business after training in sewing and cutting in Kathmandu. I was 16 years old when I started the business . She was engaged in business from a young age and did not get married for a long time . At the age of 33, I got married to a person from Farakchaur, Beas Municipality-11, Tanahun.

After getting married, the responsibility increased . I had my first daughter at the age of 36 and my second daughter two years later. After the birth of my second daughter, the relationship between me and my husband became cold . My husband left me after taking charge of my elder daughter Sakira . Since then, my little daughter Sirisasit is now living in Vyas-2 . The little daughter is 10 years old. My daughter is now studying in 4th grade in an institutional school near home. 

The little girl has been sick since childhood. When she was 3 years old, she collapsed suddenly, and when she was seen by the doctor, she was found to have a bowel problem. I treated him with medicine for about 5 years . About 12 lakh rupees was spent on the medicine expenses of the daughter . Where did you have so much money? I took a loan from a neighbor and took treatment. They were doing household chores by sewing and cutting and paying installments. Around the year 2077, I fell ill myself. For two years, my heart did not work . 18 lakh rupees more was spent for 2 years of eating, medical treatment. 

I bought a land with the money I earned while living in Kathmandu, and after selling it, I got 10 lakh rupees . I treated myself with the money I got from selling the land and some loans. Later, after the doctor told me not to do sewing-cutting work, I bought an auto rickshaw and started driving it. It has been three years since he started driving now. In the morning, I take my daughter to school and go to drive the car. I go to pick up my daughter during her school holidays . Then I drive till 6/7 pm . I can't work very late at night because my daughter is young. 

Like other auto drivers, if they could work from 6 in the morning to 9/10 in the evening, the earnings would be good. Now it is the same thousand/twelve hundred rupees a day . Sometimes you have to settle for 5/6 hundred. It is expensive, earning is not much but expenses are all round . We have rented two rooms in Amachhori Bazar area. The monthly room rent should be paid Rs. 5,000. 3,000 per month in my daughter's school, no tuition, my daughter's copy-book, kalam, lunch, home ration, salt oil, gas, nothing is saved from the earnings . Sometimes it is not enough.

When I have money, I always bring necessary rations, salted oil, spices, rice. Rice, some vegetables, turmeric, oil are sometimes used by Maiti . The income from auto is reaching two lakhs. She has not been able to repay the loan taken when she and her daughter were ill. What is this thing called fate! When I was in Kathmandu, I ran my home business from the same sewing-cutting work. Due to the danger to life, sewing-cutting had to be stopped now. By running

auto, you won't earn as much as by sewing-cutting. If I was doing sewing now, I would have been able to pay off the debt I took when my daughter and I were sick! She has not been able to pay anything other than 3/4 installment.