As we do not have our own place to live, we are sheltered at my brother's house in Birendranagar-5, Srinagar. Three mothers and children live in a room covered with tin in Bhai Juddh Basel's yard. It is not always easy to take shelter from relatives. Sometimes the brother's family closes the room. At that moment, we pitched a tent on the bank of the river and spent the night.

Now I am 41 years old. She got married to Krishna Nepali from Surkhet at the age of 13. We raised Bangur in our small house in Bhairavasthan. In Allare Jovan, the household was running well. But, later on, the issue of relationship with the woman started to increase after her husband moved out.

The first child born at the age of 15 did not survive. A total of seven children were born, but only three survived. Her husband used to beat her even when she was pregnant. Due to the effect of that, many children had to be lost in the womb. I had built a one-story house in Bhairavasthan with my hard earned money. The husband not only made us sad, he also sold the same house and walked away .

The husband has not had a heart attack for 10 years . After looking at his way, I raised three children by grinding gravel and working in other people's houses. Sometimes I also go to the market to earn wages. On the other hand, Maiti's supportive father also passed away when the family broke down. And it seemed that God himself did not want to see us happy. 

Giti has not been sold for 4 months even though it has been crushed and piled up . However, she has not stopped beating in the hope of selling one day. Now I am living by begging . Feed the day the ballast is sold, otherwise cry. A 12-year-old son who grows up in the third grade faints on days when he doesn't have enough to eat. The 26-year-old eldest son walks with a limp. Although the doctor showed a mental problem in the eldest son, she could not treat it .

How should I treat my son because he can't eat in the morning and evening! It seems that the daughter also cheated. While studying in class 10, she married a boy from Birgunj. She has not come back since. It is difficult to teach a small son. No matter how much I tried, the children did not follow the good path . 

It seems like hunger is eating people . There are also days when we don't get food for 5-6 hours. There is no one who wants to eat a piece of bread because they do all the work of the village collection. When driving the hammer while crushing the gravel, the hand is melting. Now I come late in the morning because of the summer . The sun is hot during the day. It is okay to work in the light of street lights at night. It is cool . There is no work like before . 

In the beginning I also sold ballast for up to 250 rupees . Now they don't even take it for 100 rupees. Earlier, I had collected 9 lakhs in the cooperative by working in many people's houses. I built a small house with that money. Father passed away. After my husband got married again, I was surrounded by many problems . The son has also blown the money on the pretext of my treatment . I can eat on the day I work, otherwise I will starve .