They call me 'Boknyaro' because I live by carrying heavy loads. Some people say Barla because Achham is home to Barla. Since my surname is Khanal, many people also call me Bahun. A person who makes a living carrying a heavy load does not need a name. They address whatever they want.

Although it has been more than 40 years since Mangalsen came to the headquarters, no one has found out his real name . If you ask why you are called by many names, you are afraid that you will not get the job . Therefore, whatever name is given, it feels right to be able to earn a living. Now I am about 60 years old. I don't even care about age calculation. 

There is a long story behind coming to the headquarters from Barla at the age of 20. At that time, Achhami Raja of Mangalsen reached my village and bought a buffalo. It was decided that my father would take the buffalo to the king's house. Along with my father, I followed the buffaloes and have not gone back since Mangalsen came. 

Who is in the house, what is the condition of parents, I don't know anything . I don't know how to read. There is no mobile to contact. Even from home, no one came to understand my situation . Since I came here, I stayed in the king's house and worked for a long time . I didn't have to work outside for the first few years. Living was not a problem before, not even now . The 'royal family' reached Kunni by giving them a room to live in a house that was torn apart by the earthquake. I am waiting for home . There is no electricity, water, or water facilities in the mud house. 

I earn a hundred/two hundred a day by carrying heavy loads to support myself . When the vehicle did not reach Mangalsen, it was good to earn by carrying heavy loads. Heavy loads of army, police and personnel coming/going through transfer at that time. They used to pay 250 rupees for carrying heavy loads from Mangalsen to Sanfebagar. They used to provide food and snacks on the way. From here to Martadi in Bajura, it used to cost 300 days. 5/6 hundred hands were used to deliver doti to Silgarhi, Dipayal, Shantinagar. 

I collected about 90,000 by carrying heavily. I was mentally deranged after the same money that I had collected by carrying so much that my back was broken was stolen from my house. I thought that after accumulating some money, I would get married, even if it was small, I would buy land and build my own house . Dreams were stolen along with money. 

My husband also has a special obligation to be different from other men . Earlier I used to dress like other men . Sometimes I used to buy clothes with my earnings . After the money was stolen, he did not buy new clothes and wear them. One day at home, the king's daughters said, ``You wear the clothes you wear.'' In the beginning, everyone used to make fun of women's clothes. Earnings could not buy clothes, so I had to wear something to cover my dignity . But, teasingly, the bangles and grandchildren also started wearing them . Now it is a habit to wear such clothes .

What I carry a lot is the weight of rice and gas . They also call to wash the dishes after marriage and fasting in the village. For washing the dishes, some give one hundred/two hundred and some give up to five hundred . So far, food has not been cooked and eaten at home. Money is not accumulated to cook at home, to buy food and utensils . Lakshiram Bhat sir, who owns a house in the market, gives food to most of them. Since he has a gas shop, I also carry heavy goods there . As I do not have citizenship, I have not been able to open a bank account .