Byas Municipality-3 Shantinagar of Tanahun is my paper address. His life has no destination. I can wake up early and do housework. After sending the children to Khuwaivari School, I reach the Administration Chowk around 10 am and wait for customers by roasting corn until 8 pm.

For 6 years, I have been making a living by selling seasonal vegetables and fruits along with corn. As the winter is ending, almonds are not sold that much, oranges are expensive so I can't bring much. 

20 kilos of oranges in a crate were sold up to 150 rupees per kilo after paying 2600 rupees. Even if you pay 6,000 to bring 40 kilos of peanuts at once, you will not save that much after roasting and sorting. Sometimes 2000 and sometimes 200 are hardly saved by doing retail business. 

My property has these two sons and one daughter . You have to buy pulses, rice, vegetables, oil, salt, turmeric, spices from your daily earnings. On the other hand, the price of 20-25 kg of rice is 2000 to 2500 . To reach 10/15 days, I bring 2/4 kg and Khatryak Khutruk same at once . 5 liters of cooking oil costs about 1300 rupees. When there is no business, it is very difficult to borrow ration water. We have rented two rooms by paying 5,000 per month. 

Although I don't remember the age when I got married, I am now 26 years old. Since my mother-in-law is Damauli, I have rented a room and stayed here . In the beginning, I used to earn 4/500 a day while working as a wage worker to support household expenses. Her first husband, Ram Tamang, went to Pokhara looking for work 2 months after the birth of her daughter as she could not afford the expenses.

After a long time my husband did not return, I married Umesh Yadav whom I met here. Pasang and Maya were born from the first husband and Sagar from the second. The eldest son was 14, the daughter was 13 and the youngest son was 9 years old. They study in classes 7, 6 and 3 at the nearby Maharishi Ved Vyas Sanskrit Secondary School. 

A family of 5 is running Zenten with one person's income . After the first husband left her, although she obtained citizenship from Maiti, the birth of her children could not be registered as her second husband was Indian. Children say they want new clothes, different foods, copy books and bicycles.

Some time ago, the eldest son had decided to buy shoes to wear when playing football. When I went to the market and asked the price of the shoes, I couldn't buy them. When children's wishes cannot be fulfilled, sometimes the heart becomes sad. I buy new clothes for my children once a year. I have expressed my heart by wearing clothes given by others. 

I suffered a lot from not reading it . Sitting in the square all day in the fire and smoke makes the eyes feel weak . It's getting hard to breathe. It's warm in winter, but it's hot in summer.