Although I was born in Dailekh headquarters, I got married in Kalilai and came to Dullu Municipality-1, Dungeshwar. Karma did not let him stay there either. In order to make a living, we are living with our two daughters and husband in the Badi Sarokar Manch hostel on Campus Road in Birendranagar, Surkhet.

Without resting on fate, my struggle starts from waking up in the morning . Two-year-old daughter Badi is currently studying in KG at Suryodaya Boarding School in Birendranagar with the help of Sarokar Manch . The little girl is barely one year old. At the age of 22, she has to take care of two daughters. Along with feeding my daughter and getting her ready for school, I also stand on the side of the campus road and sell snacks throughout the day .  After there was no way to break the story, Mama (Hikmat Badi) bought a cart by spending 30,000 with the financial support of Badi Sarokar Manch. It was my uncle who started the business by buying fruits. After those fruits were sold, I didn't have money to sell more . After that, I started a brisk business by gathering noodles, rice, potatoes, beans, chilies, chickpeas, and bananas. 

Now a packet of noodles costs 500 rupees and 30 rupees of bhuja . It has increased from 50 to 80 rupees per kg. Potatoes and chillies cost Rs 70 per kg. A bottle of sauce costs 140. 100 per liter of default. Cumin seeds cost 180 rupees and coriander 90 rupees. In the evening and morning, my husband and I have been able to stay and eat for free for helping with the work of the hostel. Husband dropped out till 4th standard . Having passed class 10, I have also become a smart businessman. 

In Dungeshwar of Dailekh, except for one house, there is no yard in the name of the land. Before the fall of Birendranagar, the husband used to earn between 500 and 1000 rupees a day when he was able to transport goods in the village. On the day of fishing, up to 1200 hands were caught. I used to earn 3,000 when I could deliver a tractor by crushing gravel for a month. Bringing a load of big firewood and selling it was 250 per day. With all that money, it would have been difficult to eat in the evening and in the morning.  By selling

fast, now one thousand to 1500 is being earned a day . I separate 3/400 out of it and deposit it in my pocket every day . The remaining money can be used to buy goods needed for a quick sale the next day . There is a dream of collecting money and keeping a bag full of goods . Since there is no income from others, I am the only one who has to pay for the house expenses . In the Dailekh house, there is also an elderly mother-in-law, brother-in-law, Sani Nand . They also make a living by crushing gravel, selling firewood and carrying sand. 

Badi Sarokar Manch has arranged for Nanda to study residentially. As my mother-in-law has high blood pressure, I also send 2,000 per month for medicine expenses from here . My brother-in-law sends me when I can't. I will buy a carton of eggs for 550 at the rate of 15 days a month for my daughters. I pay 50 rupees a day and buy half a liter of milk . Fruits sometimes cost 2/300 rupees for half/one kilo. It costs 2/3 thousand to buy one/two pairs of clothes in a year only when needed. 5,000 per month is spent on rice, pulses, vegetables, oil, salt and spices. Earnings are not always enough, so we search for resources. 

I got married at the age of 12. After being sued by those who said that child marriage should not be done, I stayed with my wife for many years and came to my husband's house only after reaching age. When my mother was staying, my uncle kept her in a hostel and taught her up to class 10 . In our community, it was customary to get married at a young age. Earlier there was a 'bad practice' of going to different places in India and the country for 'prostitution'. After Mama built a hostel in Surkhet and brought children from the Badi community to study, this custom also disappeared. Even though I have the passion and desire to do it, I have to stay suppressed due to the financial situation. Although I want to get a job, I don't have much skill and education.