Also, since I left my birth district Rolpa when I was 12/13 years old, I have not found a way to return. I came to Rukum after getting the job of loading goods on horses and carts in Kalilai. For a few years, he made a living by loading goods in the village houses of Rukum. I was about 35 years old when I came to Musikot as the headquarters. Since then I have been doing heavy lifting at the headquarters.

After reaching the age of 60 carrying heavy loads, life started to seem like it was over . My family includes my wife, two daughters aged 20 and 15 and a son aged 16. But, none of us are together . The elder daughter said that she will run a retail shop in Kathmandu. The younger daughter is in Mavali (Kharbang of East Rukum). Even though my son is here, he doesn't live with me . Dulha, eat . Sometimes meet . But, not in particular contact . My wife and I used to live together . After the expenses increased, she lived in a house in a village called Khara in Triveni.

Even if there are 5 people in the family, it hurts a lot to not be able to live together. My job is a wage earner . Sometimes you earn up to 800, sometimes not even 100 . If we calculate the month, it will be 15,000 to 20,000. But it hardly wakes up to 10,000. That always happens and ! If I save money, I deposit it in the cooperative. After saving a few months of earnings, it will be spent all at once . So no saving . 

Together with a friend who works with me, we have taken a room in the market . We pay 1,000 for its rent, but cooking takes a lot of time and money, so we pay 6,000 a month to eat in a hotel. Don't eat lunch like that . If you have to eat, it costs 50-60 rupees . By doing this, around 10,000 will be spent . 

Medicines and treatments are the most expensive when it comes to grief. There is not much expense for the younger daughter and son. But the elder daughter says that she has a problem with her neck, and the doctor says that she needs an operation. But no money . 10,000 has already been sent, now I have to send it after earning again. I'm not so sure either, for those of us who work all day and are able to make ends meet, I have chanted the name of God many times when I don't have money to buy medicine after I get sick . Sometimes it seems that God has saved us more than medicine.

It's been years since I bought new clothes. I remember that the last time I bought a lot of clothes was five years ago during Dasain . After that I didn't have to buy it . The people who work here wear them with love and some give new clothes. That's what I wear . It doesn't cost me much . But during the festival, clothes should be bought for the family and children. At other times they avoid it too much . However, earnings are being spent on such and such things . Therefore, it is not possible to promise. Other than the wish to continue working

, there are no other big dreams and desires. My dream is to build a house where my family, who are scattered in four directions, will be able to gather in one place if I somehow get money. But when will this dream come true! At that time our house was in Pachabang of Rolpa.

My parents passed away before I knew it. And there were brothers and sisters in the family . Haven't been there since leaving home . Sometimes I miss home and the sound of going home also wakes up . But did not dare to go . What do they (siblings) look like? Maybe because I'm busy with work, I don't even get time to think emotionally. Life is like this .