No matter how dim the memories are, Kedar Ghimire has carefully kept his mother together in Smriti's album. Sometimes they turn it over but the mother bursts into tears. In childhood, someone would casually ask her mother's name. He used to say, 'Agnikumari.' But Agnikumari merged into the fire.

It kept in my mind - Mother has gone, through a path that will never return.' That day, from the window of the upper room, he looked outside with his brother. She was in deep sleep. Maybe for the first time, mom was calm. Mother s pain was calm. They carried the sleeping mother on a bamboo. The villagers followed. 8  Kedar whispered to his brother, 'Lage-Lage. He took his mother.'

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Kedar was 5 years old. Neighbors gathered around the house. At that time, the voice of a crying baby was heard. Someone from the village told him, 'Tero Bhai Janmio, Tan Dai Bhaiise.' Kedar has fond memories of that time. He was not able to be near his mother as much since he became conscious. "Mother had a lung problem, she was sick. He remembers being kept in Shantbhavan in Lalitpur for months for treatment,” he recalls. Once the mother was brought home after being hospitalized for four months. He kept looking at his mother who was kept inside the house. Relatives asked, 'Do you know her?' He said to himself, 'I can forget my mother!' She was kind. Neighbors used to sing the glory of mother. She used to call and feed the people passing by the house. Instead, she endured illness, she did not endure the hunger of the hungry,' the neighbors used to say in this spirit, 'how simple and modest she was.' Kedar tried to remember his mother's words. could not He would ask Dai, 'What did our mother say?' He would tell Dai what he remembered, 'Mother used to say - don't smile so that your teeth are visible. Society doesn't think it's good.

He has a memory with his mother Agnikumari. He went to Mamaghar with his mother. Tired of walking but did not reach Mamaghar. Asked, 'What time will he come?' The mother pointed with her finger and said, 'He is over there, he has come.' Kedar thought, "Mother would have carried it." But she did not carry it. I found out the reason later. At that time, my mother could not carry me due to illness,' says Kedar.

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• • Kedar was born in Thingan of Makwanpur. An incident when he was two years old was still narrated to him by his elders. The mother asked the elder brother to look after the brother and went to mow the grass. On returning, only Dai was there, not Kedar. Agni Kumari's lips and mouth are dry. It was rainy season. It's raining. Fields of corn spread far and wide. There was also the fear of the fox coming. Together with the neighbors, they searched for him in the chimney, but could not find him. Agnikumari became unconscious. He was playing on the side of the yard when everyone was returning home. What happened to the mother at that time? Now I feel it," says Kedar.

Even now, he can't bear to remember his mother's last days. The villagers who were staying in Kuruwa the previous evening had already found out. Kedar was close by. Sending him to the other side, he started saying, "Don't let the Bhuras sit side by side." 

At that moment the mother looked for the younger brother but the brother was not allowed to come near. At that time, Kedar had decided, 'Mother is going.' Kedar felt inexplicable the days after his mother left. Friends used to say 'I will tell my mother' if someone does something to them. "My friends tell my mother, who will I tell?" He probably didn't have the answer to the incomprehensible question. His morale was weak and was afraid of his friends.

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• • In the year 2039, Kedar got his mother again, the 'younger mother'. Kind like his mother. Before mother left, talk of Ba's new marriage was going on. The mother handed over the little one and said, 'Now it is your responsibility to take care of these children.' Kedar's three brothers slowly began to cuddle in the arms of the younger mother. Scolding like a mother, loving like a mother. On top of that, the name Agnikumari. 

No other children were born from Agni Kumari's womb. She adopted all three sons as her children. Maya clutched her chest. He never made her feel like a mother, nor did she let her lack it. She did everything a mother would do,” recalls Kedar. He would not eat when he was angry. Mother understood Kedar's ghurki and used to feed it. He slept early. Mother would pick him up and feed him. Kedar loved his mother's arms. Once a thorn fell on Kedar's foot. Legs are also swollen. He has covered the wound because his mother is scolding him. Agnikumari was sad when she saw it. And she applied the medicine by squeezing it with her finger. And, she scolded, "Fataha, are you going to hide the wound like this?" 

Kedar stayed in a hostel in Lalitpur to study class 7. Every now and then, when she reached home, her mother's only worry was, 'Yo te dublae cheh.' When she returned, she would prepare manggey koseli and send it to her. And, she used to say, "Don't stay hungry." The financial condition of the house was not strong. His mother took care of his father's earnings. She used to make the house like a house. The house would be deserted if mother was not there for a day. It would be scattered. It seemed awful. When mother would come, everything would be in rhythm,” recalls Kedar.

Mother wanted her sons to always follow the good path. Once Kedar reached home drunk. Mother could smell it. Hurting her heart, she said, 'Going to Kathmandu, you have learned a great deal. Kedar was 24 years old at that time. He used to remember his mother's scolding even later. Needless to say, he also gave up alcohol. I don't eat anything I don't want. I don't do anything I don't want. Because I feel like my mother is watching,” says Kedar.

Kedar's peers had already moved in. After 20 years, his mother was worried, 'When will he get married?' When Kedar came home from Kathmandu, she always asked, 'Shouldn't he get married?' Kedar got married in 2005. She was the mother who brought her daughter-in-law into the house. "Mother was very happy at that time," says Kedar. Mother got along very well with daughter-in-law Sita Devi. They were more like friends than mother-in-law. But after 2 years of bringing in the daughter-in-law, her mother also left her. Agni Kumari said to Sita Devi when she was in the hospital bed, 'Now you will be fine. Everything will be fine. He excelled in artistry. His character 'Magne Budha' became famous from the popular comedy teleserial 'Meri Bassai'. In the film too, there was no turning back from 'Chha Ekkan Chha'. He strengthened his poor economic condition through his art. She thinks, 'It was a blessing from my mother to get better in the field of art!' After years of

, Sita Devi's mother came to her dream. She blessed him and said, "Your crying is over." No need to cry anymore.'

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• • Around the year 2058. Kedar was in his radio shop in Kathmandu. Suddenly news came from the village that the mother's stomach was bloated. He reached the village and brought his mother to Patan Hospital. The doctor said, 'Operation should be done immediately.' Mother's intestine was perforated by tuberculosis. Thanks, the operation was successful. Mother was taken home. There was happiness in the family. However, less than a month after the operation, the mother's stomach started to hurt again. Life began to dry up. Kedar's three brothers tried their best to save their mother but could not. 

Another mother also went. Like the old mother, through the path of never returning. Kedar had never seen Baa Krishna Prasad cry. Saw it for the first time that day. After placing the mother in the hearse, the child fainted and said, "My actions are like this." Both of them left. Even now Kedar Patan cannot go to hospital premises. Two years ago, he had gone there to buy medicine. He had a glimpse of the pathetic sight of his mother in a wheelchair. He hugs her right there. Cracked. 

During the shooting of the film, there are sometimes scenes of mother-son relationship. That's when Kedar feels unbearable pain. During the filming of the first series of 'Chakka Panja', a scene had to be shot. In which Kedar's character is going abroad after leaving his tuberculosis-stricken mother. While watching the scene, Kedar's eyes filled up. He could not act at all. Scenes that should not bring tears kept coming. He could not even take 10 takes. Not only me, but also those in the team did not have a mother. They also started crying,” recalls Kedar.

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• • Mother's Day comes every year. Others post pictures of their mothers on their Facebook walls. But he? The photo of the mother who gave life is decorated in the frame. But there is no photo of the birth mother anywhere. He looks at his mother dressed in a frame, explains his mind. Kedar didn't even look for a photo of his first mother. It was not customary to take photographs at that time. Nor the status of a family that can draw. He searched for his mother's photo until later. Not found anywhere. Also sought citizenship. did not meet His house was burnt in 049. Many things were burnt in the fire. I thought, "Perhaps the citizenship was also burned there!" While looking for a