Bhairav ​​Dai touched the earth in 1985, I in 2002. Despite the age difference, how many things are in common in our lives. Bhairav ​​Dai has many brothers and sisters, I also had many. In Bhairav ​​Daika's words, we did not get 'a mother's undivided affection'. As a child, he had to take care of his younger brothers and sisters.

Both of our mothers had to work. Mother is always in front when working, always behind when eating. Bhairav ​​Daika's father was a priest, my father was Jotisi. Bhairav ​​Daika's father's desire to make his son a priest, my father's desire to make me an astrologer. But neither did Bhairav ​​Dai become a priest nor did I become a priest.

Bhairav ​​Dai was born in Gundu, Bhaktapur. There was no school in the place where Payak was supposed to be. Bhairav ​​Dai's family migrated to Dadhikot. The new residence is the place where the school is going to go. Bhairav ​​Dai joined the Sanskrit Pathshala. Later, Bhairav ​​Dai took up journalism. The desire to make the son a priest left with the father. When I was of school age, an ABCD scam school opened in the village. And, the desire to make the son an astrologer left with the father.

In his childhood, Bhairav ​​followed Dai Ba and was adopted in rituals. Bhairav ​​Dai would not have felt uncomfortable if he had followed that path and become a full-fledged priest. But my mood was different. I developed a distaste for Jyotis. The reason was Jotisi Ba's behavior which seemed to me not good. Some used to come empty-handed to see the planet, some came with a little rice and money. The elders often came empty-handed, the commoners came with rice and dakshina. When common people came empty-handed, Ba would take their place. She would either go home and bring something or she would never come. There was one more thing that Nani wanted in Bako Jotis. Ba used to see if the planets of the children were compatible for marriage. And, they used to say - their planets do not match, they will not get married. The clever person who observed the planetary position would appear the next day with rice and money. There was something in Sauti's words about watching and watching. And Ba would make the planet peaceful and open the way for marriage. That 'planetary peace' sounded like a bogus trick of Baka Jyotis. So I wanted to escape from Ba's unpleasant business. The English language school opened and I ran to the school after escaping from Bako Jali Jyotis. 

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Bhairav ​​Dai's same-caste life partner became a nurse, my inter-caste life partner also became a nurse. Bhairav ​​dai and Sushila sister-in-law have promised not to interfere in each other's interests and actions. A similar promise was made between Jamuna and me. In the words of Bhairav ​​Dai, we were sometimes 'Kachyakkuchuk' in Joypoi. Sometimes the conversation stopped. Our love continued to grow deeper after 'Kayakuchuk and talk stopped'. Love and love, love and love, our married life revolved around the conflict and harmony of these two elements. Neither Bhairav ​​Dai gave much time to the family, nor did I. It's not because you don't want to give, but when you have a job and social responsibility, you don't feel afraid. 

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Bhairav ​​Dai's birth place on the outskirts of the capital city. My birth place was in Panther district in Far East. This difference in geography has become the reason for getting and not getting small conveniences in our life. Bhairav ​​Dai was able to wear shoes at the age of ten-twelve. On Dasain, Dai went to Asan and bought cloth shoes. The shoes are wearing five-seven shoes. I was born fourteen years after Bhairav ​​Dai. I could barely put my shoes on when I was seventeen. At that time, there was a custom of defecating in the capital and nearby areas with sacks, dhod, chitra or reeds. It is a custom to urinate in a tin in the house hole to collect and add manure. I did not even think of Paikhana and Chhindi-Hagan towards my side. We used to defecate in every open space. We used to wipe the feces with weeds or stones. We put mud on the anus and on the hands. Ba had his own hagangoundi. In front of the house, there was a steep rock. He used to defecate by hiding in the dark and squatting on that stone. He used to take water in a tin twak to defecate in the capital and nearby. Ba used to carry water in buckets for us. 

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There are two interesting things about Bhairav ​​Dai's wedding. Dai got married for the first time at the age of twelve. Hunekhane used to play five instruments in the morning. Narsinga, Sanai, Jyamta, Temko and Damaha were among the five players. In Bhairav ​​Dai's Kumle Bihama, only tamko is played. Because the barn of Bhairav ​​Dai's family has a tamko in Damai's house. Tamco's wages fall within the crop. Instead of five flutes, it was a sign of Tamko's poverty. Not even a tamko was played in Jamuna and my morning. 

After Bhairav ​​Dai's wedding, the first sister-in-law comes from the mother-in-law. The father of the sister-in-law is in a state of weakness that cannot be moved. Brother-in-law's choice has become more important than his love for his father. When the sister-in-law doesn't come, Bhairav ​​Dai will get another wedding invitation. Dai has been a member of Nepal Communist Party since 2009. Membership of the Communist Party paved the way for a second marriage. There was no law enforcement practice. Bhairav ​​Dai is in trouble. Bhairav ​​Dai expressed his grief after meeting Communist Party leader Pushpa Lal. Understanding his brother's grief, Pushpalal said quietly - 'You have got married successfully.' With the compassion of Comrade Pushpalal, Bhairav ​​Dai and Sushila Bahuju have tied the knot. 

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Bhairav ​​Dai Pare is a sincere and simple person. Recognized by speech. Dai has said frankly in one context - 'At that time I was a reactionary.' The context is 'Jayatu Sanskritam' movement. To increase the respect and value of Sanskrit, a movement was started in three schools. Student Bhairav ​​Dai also joined the movement. Shuras jumped on the streets in the movement, Kantar Bhairav ​​Bhai walked around. Later, when he remembered this, Bhairav ​​Dai was considered a reactionary in his own eyes. Bhairav ​​I have also been a 'reactionary' in the student movement. In the movement, Shuras would lead the way, Ganesh Rasik and I would follow with stones in our hands. The police stormed in front of two "reactionaries" with hats in their hands and hit them! On the strength of

movement, Shastri got BS degree, Acharya got MS degree. Shastri Bhairav ​​Dai, who got BA marks, passed the written and oral examination in the year 2012 after fighting public services. But he could not become a section officer. The government considered Bhairav ​​Dai's nine-year membership of the Nepal Communist Party as a crime that prevented him from getting a job. The reactionary power deprived the 'former reactionary' Bhairav ​​Dai of his job.  After the

, Bhairav ​​Dai got a job in Halkhabar. The monthly salary was Rs. Along with the job, Dai also got a bicycle. Bhairav ​​Dai's trip to the journal began by riding a bicycle — Chariveti Chariveti means walking, walking. Bhairav ​​Dai's job was to ride a bicycle and jump here and there to hunt for information. The main sources of information were, Tarai Congress leader Vedananda Jha, Nepali National Congress leader Dillaraman Regmi and Nepali Congress leader BP Koirala. Bhairav ​​Dai used to go to these three leaders day after day to find news. In the eyes of Neta Jha, Regmi and Koirala, the respect of Bhairav ​​Dai, who printed the news, increased. Later these leaders started looking for Bhairav ​​Dai. Newspapers did not publish political news so often. Only news of flood, paro, fire, diarrhoea, typhoid, measles, heavy rain, lack of rain was printed. When the cabinet was changed, it became the political news of Ghachi. 

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'Halkhabar' was closed and Bhairav ​​Dai's Garikhane business was also closed. In 2018, Bhairav ​​Dai got his first government job for 26 months. The job was census officer. To carry out the census, the brother went to Lipulek in Kalapani Bheg. Dai says - where there are no people, why do census? Dai did 26 months of work by calculating without calculation. In the year 2021, Bhairav ​​Dai got the job of Rasas. Bhairav ​​Dai took this job for twenty-one years. In Bhairav's own words, the true things seen and happened cannot be written, things have to be made up. They have to pretend that there is no salt, sugar or kerosene in the market. Bhairav ​​Dai got a job by cheating. Bhairav ​​Dai said this - According to the Ministry of Industry and Commerce, there is no shortage of salt, sugar and kerosene in the market.

After twenty-one years, Bhairav ​​Dai has lost his job at Rasas. Let him live as a free man. Bhairav ​​Dai gave up the job of Rasas. It was said that the 'reformed panchayat' had won the referendum. In Bhairav ​​Dai's view, nothing had improved in the panchayat. Bhairav ​​Dai wanted to say something against this royal pretense and said bluntly - the Asian standard of 'improved Panchayat' is a tool of the Council of Ministers. Bhairav ​​Dai was imprisoned for 10 months for writing this. 

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Not knowing English has become an obstacle in the way of Bhairav ​​Dai's moral development. Once Bhairav ​​dai did a great job by translating the guest's English into Devanagari. It is interesting to believe. U Thant, Secretary General of the United Nations, has come to visit Nepal. Bhairav ​​Dai of Rasas has been assigned to record the news. Bhairav ​​dai khatin ta khatie, 

How to pick up the call of an English-speaking guest? Bhairav ​​Dai has translated U Thant's English in Devanagari. Someone who knows English has translated that speech and made it into a tabloid news. How did Bhairav ​​Dai, who does not know English, translate the English of Thant into Devanagari? When you remember, you laugh! 

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Bhairav ​​Dai's deeds seem like a quest for light and sharing. Bhairav ​​Dai reached Humla in 2028. Bhairav ​​Dai closely watched Humleli's life. Faria is usually not avoided. But the Humleli woman was seen to have brought the faria with the letter on top of the letter. Bhairav ​​Dai's heart melted. Wherever you look, there is poverty, sadness and darkness in the life of the poor people. Why not free at least one life from darkness? A thought flashed in Bhairav ​​Daika's mind. That was the idea of ​​lighting solar lights in Humla. Bhairav ​​Dai collected four thousand rupees from home. Got some money from the government. Solar was installed in Humla and flickering light was distributed in 2500 dark houses. 

started in the year 2055 during Bhairav ​​Dai's 'Uhile Bajeka Palama'. Community radio Sagarmatha became a means of disseminating this experience. Bhairav ​​Dai brought to the ears of the people the experience of the passing away of old people. It was a great trick to keep unwritten public history alive in public memory. Bhairav ​​Dai's art of melting the hearts of the elders worked magic. It is also an attempt to find and share the light. Bhairav ​​Dai's 'Kurokantho' is another episode of this struggle.

* The people's movement of 2046 was moving at a slow pace. The Fukidhal movement was in danger of being crushed under the boots of the Panchayat ruler. Bhairav ​​Dai's mind flashed a trick. It was a strategy to give relief to the dry and sluggish people's movement. A few heavyweight names came to Bhairav ​​Dai's memory. They were Yadunath Khanal, Shambhu Prasad Gyawali, Dr. Mahendra Prasad etc. How good it would be to be able to pray at Pashupatinath with these nobles in front.

But will these heavyweights agree? Why don't I ask for a word? Bhairav ​​Dai implored Karjori—Heavyweight sir, the mass movement is in danger. Does praying to Pashupatinath have any effect on the mind of the despotic ruler so that the wisdom of the state will change? The heavyweights moved in and the prayer was complete. He was afraid that Gnanshahi would arrest him and make him suffer. Perhaps because of the ooze of personality of the heavyweights, nothing untoward happened. That prayer was a ploy to find light for a darkened movement.

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A worry made Bhairav ​​Dai think. As people age, loved ones fly away. How to reduce the suffering of old age? Will the euthanasia of the infirm and tired elderly be a solution? Demanding a legal system to recognize euthanasia? This idea of ​​Bhairav ​​Dai, published in the corners of small publications, could not spread widely. The lack of diffusion does not mean that the idea is not relevant. Some will see the fallacy in the idea of ​​euthanasia. In reality, this is a welfare thought. This idea is also a search for light in life. 

Bhairav ​​Dai likes to do something to make life and society beautiful. At this time, Bhairav ​​Dai wanted to make the 2018 year a year of no change. Bhairav ​​Dai announced in the rhythm of urging - Let no one cheat in eighty years. Taking a year off from everyone can be the start of a healthy change in thinking and culture. Bhairav ​​Dai's request not to imitate was mainly aimed at the rulers. If Ravi Lamichhane is the weapon of miraculous eloquence and stormy eloquence, then this request of Bhairav ​​Dai is reaching the ears of the rulers. But Bhairav ​​Dai's low voice went nowhere. Ironically, rulers cheated in the 1980s perhaps more than in any other year.