14-year-old Krishna Sunuwar was walking in and out of the room. He would enter one by one, and look at Pulak. He would go out again. Inside the small room of the terrace where he was sitting, three people were wrapping straw and making a human shape.

A head formed in an instant, arms and legs in sight. On that shape, a thick layer of barley flour was covered and a replica of Krishna's father Vinod Bahadur's body was made. In the narrow courtyard in front of the tower, a green bamboo mat was placed to keep the 'corpse'. The room where 'Shaw' was being made was funny. 

37-year-old Vinod Bahadur, who is stationed in the Donetsk region of Ukraine under the control of Russia, has been without contact since October 30. were Vinod's friend sent news to his family in Kirtipur on Saturday confirming that he had been killed. Based on that information, the family made a straw body for cremation.

72-year-old father Bir Bahadur of Molung rural municipality-7 Jese, Okhaldhunga arrived in Kathmandu on Sunday night to cremate his son Vinod. 62-year-old mother Narmaya, 34-year-old wife Srijana, son Krishna have been living in Kirtipur by renting land and building a terrace. "Father, this is your father's body." Now you have to lift it up slowly and take it outside," said Sher Bahadur, Krishna's grandfather. Krishna took Paral's body out of the room by holding the head and his relatives by the feet and placed it on the mat. The body was wrapped in a white cloth, and Vinod's photo was placed on it. The photo was from when he was working in the Nepali Army. Vinod was cremated on Monday after being taken to Pashupati Aryaghat. It was saved from a landslide. I lost my elder daughter and younger son in the landslide. Another daughter committed suicide," said Narmaya, who was rearing bangur in Kirtipur, "I only found out when she was flying. I have been a miserable old man.' 

After resigning from the Nepali Army, Vinod reached Russia on October 17 last year. This was done by Tiktok. In the Russian army, convenience is convenience. There are millions of salaries. He was touched by the message that it is good to eat and live. You left your job here,' said Srijana to Kantipur, 'everything was good in the first camp. When he went to the second camp. We know the reality. Ours has been gone since then.

The official information about the death of Nepalis in the Russian army was released from the first week of November last year. So far, 47 Nepalis have been confirmed dead. Vinod's death has not been officially confirmed by the Ministry of Foreign Affairs. 

"From November, bad news started coming on Tik Tok. I reminded her that if she can, she will have to return to Nepal," said Srijan. Vinod had reached the point of waiting for some time as 8 lakhs had been spent. Now let's see whether it's sad or happy. If there is a lot of pain, you should think about it," Vinod consoled the creation.

Around January of last year, he tearfully said that they were in a very difficult and dangerous situation. Don't stress now. I walked away from home thinking whether I would earn or die. You will do well. I will arrange the money even if I can come or not," he said, "What if I am not with you for the rest of my life? There will be money. Educate your son according to your income.

Srijana tried many ways to get Vinod out of the war. Those who entered the territory of Ukraine from Russia could not return if they wanted to. Some Nepalese used to pay up to three lakh rubles (about five lakh rupees) to brokers and reach Moscow. Some were caught on the way. 

However, the continuous photos and videos from the battlefield made creation even more restless. "He used to send me all the photos and videos that I couldn't bear. He used to say when he could not eat. They used to buy even a bottle of water and say there is no place to eat,' said Srijana, 'It was not possible to run away and come back. The Russian army spent the whole day digging bunkers while capturing the escapees. In the evening, news of beatings would come. It used to hurt me a lot.

Vinod has no idea how many times he was deployed in the war zone. Every time after returning from the war zone, Vinod used to tell his wife, "I survived, old lady, I survived." After returning to the camp, Vinod had regular conversations with his wife, son, mother and relatives. Always listening to an interesting story would leave the creativity unturned. Vinod used to send the message that Nepalis are disrespected while running away. Here we are told that your Nepali ran away. Mobile is not given. I will take it away,'' Vinod used to say, 'I will not run away, I will return after the contract is over.' A Russian passport was also made. The gate pass to leave the battlefield was also given by the Russian army. He used to tell me that he would come to Moscow and settle all accounts and return to Nepal soon. Now, the commander has said that he will leave after going to the front. He said that if he gives a month's leave, he will come to Nepal. I will go to Moscow and search.'