Dear Jhari (waiting)! You kept saying, 'Don't write me a love letter.' One day, I asked him, 'What should I write?' "Can't you come to write two-four pages to write a book?""Don't be angry with me," and showing the mobile phone, I would say, "Instead, be angry with this."Why be angry with this? That's why you can speak whenever you want.'

That's why I didn't let you write a letter. In the era of letters, it used to take weeks to get news, now dial a number, speak. It ate and threw away the patience of writing letters. You can even talk by looking at your face. A connection of both mind and WiFi is required.'

'However, the fun of reading something written by hand on paper is different. Handwritten letters have heart connections. The blood from the heart makes the pen sit on the finger and tell the heart's story.'

I told the truth in a sarcastic style, 'We said sweet things. My heart and life have become a love letter for you now. 

You read my mind, read my life. Read a love letter that cannot be read more than a love letter that can be read in one go. What else can be a long, important and big love letter like heart and life? You read me every day, every hour, every moment. You will feel different in each moment letter. As I write life with my steps, I am writing not only to myself, but also to you. Read that too. I also read you like this, I am reading. Now we are spouses who read and understand each other like this.' 

You thought my words were cute but you didn't like it and said, "He is a writer!" Even for two-four pages... !'

'You are also in these books, just like I am. The books that will come now will be our life.'

But, when you didn't understand, I said, 'Someday I will give you a surprise.'

000

Most of the time I am thinking about you and our children. You know, I don't open immediately. I have a limit - I can hide anything inside myself for a while, cook it in secret, let it simmer, cook it for a while and cook it only when it is warm. Sometimes it is cold. But, you are in a hurry, do things - say what you think immediately, give an immediate decision, give an immediate response.

In this question, I see many people in you:

Sometimes I see children, even though you are a mother of children, you are sometimes a child. We talk about things that are touching, snarky, and very raw, but incomprehensible. It seems at that time, you and I are watching the cattle and making a house by connecting mud clods to the fields, playing with cooking rice from the mud, sometimes turning the leaves into money sometimes. At that time you forgot your age and became a child.

Your mind has changed faster than the moon in a moment. I fall in love with the coolness and playfulness of the moon and I try to turn that love into honey, just as a bee makes honey from the juice of a flower. 

You have more ability to make honey than I do. We feed each other's hearts by mixing the same honey sometimes with water, sometimes with milk. It makes our mind healthy. It is as important to have a healthy mind as a healthy body. A healthy mind and body leads to a healthy life.

Sometimes I look at you in an amoh mood - big anger on small things, small anger on big things. Anger caused by small things is stored up by small things. It rises like a wave of the sea and stays like a wave. In this way, I watch you get tired in an instant as you keep getting angry.

When I see an adult, a retired professor is in front of me. She stood up to lecture me on Eastern and Western literature and philosophy. Having difficulty standing, she sat on the chair again. Unable to stay even there, she lies on the bed and starts giving sermons. After some time adulthood comes and you become like children or like your own age.

When will I see Sadhika I think she suddenly became a saint. She is understanding the mysteries of the entire creation with subtle vision. She is giving sermons on mysterious and deep topics like spirituality, sky, soul, Kaivalya.

In no time, you return to your own age and become velvety and worldly. Sometimes it seems like acting and I try to feel it subtly by seeing these roles of yours. It seems natural, as we think we become. But, most of all, we are like our own age and experience. 

000

I talked about Sadika above. Sometimes you separate work, anger, greed, infatuation, and love, sometimes you mix them together with meditation. Connect with Sadhana. But you can't last long either and you become a child again. I love that childishness. Even the mistakes made by children are sweet, the words and sentences that do not match are also cute.

I sat down to write a love letter, my attention was lost again. Two months ago, when I was meditating on the science of life, I thought of many skies and the light that gives peace to the mind like a star shining there, and I remembered you. I would bring you too. He said that since the father is small, there is no great attention like Vatsalya.

I also try not only to write, but to connect my actions with meditation. Your connection and my connection is our life. Be mindful.

000

Mainly because of the feeling inside and the nature it has created, as the age gradually turns purple from velvet, it seems now - love, love, relationship, creation and elements like spirituality and philosophy. Before reaching forty, it was more fun to experience life than to understand it, now it is more fun to understand it than to experience it. But these things are not in our hands. 

Life is the same, age waves are different. The shores are being built and destroyed and destroyed. 

000

You love nature. A rugged mountain, which faces east. May the mountains to the north be seen, and the sun to the south shine. Let water spring from a stone cup somewhere in your own land. The house should be made of stone, mud and wood, and the roof should be thatched or made of wood. 

We live in Kathmandu now. Here there are houses taller than trees, in villages there are trees taller than houses. In the city, houses block the sun from the trees and starve them. In villages, trees shade houses and protect roofs and walls from the hot sun.

But where does it happen just by liking it? I like it that way too. Again you turn to the behavior and say, 'Study is here, earning is here, work is here, position is here. But you will spend your old age in the village.'

- What if the village you live in when you are old has become a city?

- Live in another village.

- What if another village becomes a forest?

- The village is a place where trees and agriculture write poetry. Even though another village is a forest, there is another village under the guise of it. We have to stay there.

is easy to imagine. It takes a lot of effort to turn imagination into action and action to result. 

000

Whether you are traveling somewhere or living alone, there is one thing that comes to mind from what you said, 'It was my dream since I was in school. My spouse is a writer. She writes while I watch. Let him play with the character, I will play with him, he will raise his eyes to me as I write. That's when our eyes meet. That's when I sink into his eyes and reach my heart. 

Let's swim a lot. And, sit on the shore and look at my face in that pool.''

Sometimes I think about our meeting - who made it happen? how did it happen

I think again, how did the river and the sea meet? 

There are many things to write, but there is a word limit in the magazine. Even if I didn't write, you know everything about what happened to me.

knowingly or out of boredom, it has been a long time since I have not said 'Letter'. Sometimes it seemed as if it would be said 'once again'  At the same time, I am writing after "Koseli" coordinator Deepak Sapkota said, "Don't write for Koseli". But, I am writing for you in your name. Many others will read this letter with you or before you. What a strange love letter!

Now leave the hunger of reading such a love letter. Someday I will write a book. Instead, I have realized something important for a few days - let me tell you.

dr. Navraj KC has written in his new book 'Swasparsh' (Page 159/160) - My Genetics Guru 

used to say, 'There is knowledge equal to a hundred encyclopedias or books in just one DNA.' How many books, libraries and schools does a person come with at birth?