I always felt that my life was like a light bulb hanging in a room. Every evening I turn on the light, turn it off before bed. But, every time I hit the light switch I don't know - it might not turn on. If the light doesn't light up one day, I say, Oh, it's on! My life was the same.

On an ordinary day, I would suddenly go out like a light in the room. No one knows when the light bulb will go off in my life. None of us know the date on which our light bulb will burn and that is the only thing that inspires us to live.

When the light bulb in our room burns, we get a little worried that all four corners are dark. But we don't worry, we change the bulb and the room becomes bright again. I knew very well that life, the world or the universe would not be dark after the light of my life was extinguished.

Another bulb is hung in my place and it sheds its light. To my family, friends and well-wishers, the light of the new bulb may not give a glimpse of light for a little longer, but that light cannot remain dim for long. Mine will gradually get used to the light of the new bulb. (I also want it to fall.)  Let's say

- I'm not here today. However, my light being extinguished does not mean that I will be instantly forgotten. That's it, the darkness of my absence will be filled by someone else. All people have their own light, some may be dim, some may be bright. Unfortunately, not everyone is aware of their light. People have their own light, but they seek light from others.

How many times he said to me, "Brother, it's dark, turn on the light, save me from the darkness." I did not skimp on sharing the light I had. If you think about it, people are often hiding their light, as if if they share it, it will decrease π 

However, if the light you have is not shared, it will be gradually wasted, like electricity. One day, we will all die. Then we are in the dark.

As long as you have the light, if you are greedy and don't share it with anyone, then after your light is extinguished, only darkness will remain, because no one else will give light to those who are greedy. However, if the light is shared while alive, the light of others will give light to oneself even after death. I feel like today, I was the kind of person who, whether in my profession or in my personal life, kept sharing what I learned, the light I had. I am satisfied with it. 

Even when I'm gone, the lamps I've shared my light with will continue to burn. I am hearing people say 'that Anil Shah has lit a candle and given light to many'. Therefore, when I remember myself as a living person, I see myself as a burning candle, a candle that is useful for lighting the lamps of others.

There were many people in the society who were bankers like me, people who were richer than me, who had more knowledge and expertise and who had a greater light than me. But look, today my article has been printed, even after the evacuation, my research has been done, my words have been heard. It is because of lighting a lamp for others that it has become a name, respect and brand.

Just a few days ago, a brother came to visit me. I met him in 2019 at an entrepreneurship conference at Yak & Yeti Hotel. He was a student at that time, now he is in Dubai trading gold. The only reason he met me was to say 'thank you bro'.

'Your words lit a light in my mind, I got the courage to do it and today I have reached here, there is still a lot to do'. After listening to him, I felt that I got more prosperity than earning crores of rupees.

It was not my inborn habit to want to spread light, to teach what I had learned. I was soft-spoken until I went to study in America around 1983/84. The professors there said that if you stay silent like this, you are not initiated, you should improve your communication skills. Then I tried to speak. After returning to Nepal and joining ISIMOD, I started talking without going to my limited circle.

Nobody knew me until I worked at the then Greenledge Bank for 13 years, but that bank taught me banking. Nabil Bank appointed me as CEO at the age of 38 and the efforts we made to make it the number one bank gave me public recognition. Only then, my light shines.

After leaving the banking career, some people told me 'now you are the biller'. I established 'Lead Nepal Inc.' not to be uninvited but to share my skills and experience. Its purpose was leadership development. I thought, Nepal lacks only one thing - leadership ability.

Nepali youth can sweat in Malaysia, Qatar, show intellectual ability in Australia and America, but they have not been able to pour the same hard work and intellectual ability in Nepal. This is due to weak leadership skills. There is a lack of leadership skills in every field, not just politics. I had learned leadership skills in my banking career, I went here thinking it would be a sin not to share this skill with others.  After embarking on a journey of

leadership development, my fan base was not limited to the banking sector but widened. Even when I went to Lomanthang, my brothers and sisters recognized me and came to take selfies. A few days ago there was a party at an ambassador's house, the brothers who served food came to talk to me knowing me. The people of my brotherhood knew me, others were also proud to know me. Due to leadership ability, our neighboring countries are rising from poverty to become the world's largest economies. If skilled leadership can make a difference in a country with a population of more than 1.5 billion, there is no problem in bringing about change in our country. 

In developed countries, there are many people who light the lamp for each other and for the society. On the other hand, we fear that if we tell others what we are going to, 'he will eat my chair'. Even in the days when I started my career, people used to say that 'If you teach others, you will be better than me', and it is still there. This thinking is a standard of weak confidence. I think my strong point is my confidence. I was always sure that 'my candle never goes out'. I had full confidence in myself that I can learn or do one thing or another in life. 

I created a 'happiness formula' that needs to be updated on every birthday to stay happy in life. It had 5 elements – family and friends, money, health, power status and community service. Each person has different priorities in these five things. On my birthday, I used to write these five things on a copy and put as many points as I want to give to the elements out of 100 integers.

When I was young, money made me happy, I used to give it 60 points. The remaining four were left with 40 points. I used to give it 50 points if I thought I was happier when I spent time with family and friends. Thus it became easy for me to find my desire, purpose and goal. In the journey of life, what makes you happy, if you run without realizing it, you will become hollow inside.

Even though I was carrying the formula of happiness, there was always an unfulfilled desire left in me. If the wishes were fulfilled, I would have gone to Pashupati with ashes. I was 'positively restless' with unfulfilled desires. The feeling that there is something left to be done for themselves, for the society, for the country, for the family remained in the mind. Celebrated every success but kept wishing for another success. As much as there were many unfulfilled desires while in the campus, so many desires remained unfulfilled while being a banker and in the subsequent career. Even now, the desire to travel with the family, dance at the wedding of daughter Arya, and make the youth a skilled leader is still playing in my mind. Before the

, I talked about wandering in Pashupati, I remember, I and my brother were brought up in an environment where even if we fell into a bad state, we did not get upset. My father Dr. Narayan Keshari Shah worked for the World Health Organization in Delhi, Muma Bindashweri Shah went to Bangladesh as ambassador.

They have never been together all their lives, because of work. My brother and I changed 9 schools, there was such instability. Therefore, if the two of us had fallen into a corner due to drugs or alcohol, people would have said, 'Mothers and fathers only look at their careers, what would happen to sons if they were useless?' But, as my brother and I discovered when we were young, this instability is our stability.

In two/three years the opportunity to make new places, new food, new friends wherever one gets π Thus we took instability positively. That acceptance taught me to easily soak up any 'change' throughout my life. My foundation was in 'change'. It didn't matter to me whether it was fine dining in New York, or eating in a bra, both were acceptable.

I credit my parents for this. They never left their profession. I thought all women went to the office because of muma. It was later learned that 95 percent of mothers are stay-at-home mothers. It never occurred to me that women and men function differently because of muma. I always spoke for women.

My mother's work in the kitchen was not poor. However, today I am amazed when I see my daughter cooking. If Muma had been shocked, he too would have been shocked. My wife, Rati Rajyalakshmi, is a more knowledgeable, modern woman than me. A person who came in the top four in Delhi University has passed Tribhuvan University with the highest number of marks so far in Political Science. She chose to stay at home. Because of him, I didn't have to worry about economics in my life apart from my career. Rati took care of the entire management of the house from the clothes I wear. 

When I first got a job in a bank, the salary was 3,500 rupees. At the time of our marriage, the salary was Rs. 28,000. Earned lakhs of rupees while taking vacation. No amount of money is enough. As Rati took care of running the house, I never had to worry about managing money.

Funny, people used to say to me, 'Anilji, teach us how to generate wealth, teach us too.'

I have been to the ghat several times when an old client of mine passed away. The pyre is burning, the malamis are saying - the burden of the earth, the tax thief has died, it is good. The body has arrived in a Range Rover, the body is not incinerated, people say so. If you make money, whatever you want to say is fine. But, I want to say at least 'he was a person who gave positive thinking'.