One evening I was playing with my friends. A friend suddenly said - he will die! The consciousness of dying had not entered his mind at that time. I was shocked when I first realized that I was going to die. People die? Why did Abui die? Where do you go when you die? Many questions suddenly played in my mind, I became tense. After all, if you have to die one day, why play! Why fight! For the first time it entered the child's mind like this - the glimmer of death.

That flash came back again – at the age of 23/24, when my father passed away. That experience of returning home after giving the candle to my father with my own hands, I think that I should not have remembered it. Father's bedroom contained all of Father's belongings, but no father. That incident made me more sensitive and stronger.

After that, I got the opportunity to get to know the life-world closely - the rules and orders of the society started to seem false. Then my fascination ended. There was no fear of loss or desire to gain, I could easily accept everything. Even now some things may bring tears, but there is no clase of infatuation, attraction and ambition to achieve. After that I stopped playing movies and started giving myself the remaining time. 

We should think a lot about death, it makes people realistic, makes them stronger. If you think, 'What is there to die and take away?', anger, pride, resentment will disappear by itself. So there is no loss in thinking about death from time to time. Indeed, if there is anything true in this world it is death. 

Before I die, I want to change something in politics - I will join politics in 089 if not in 084. We have to say to the Nepali people - 'Rekha Thapa thinks for us not only in reel, but also in real.' History is to be made in politics. I am thinking for my own society, country and people. Now there is a bad culture in the society of making money and trusting viral people. This rite must end.

It is only after 20 years that life and the world begin to be understood subtly. Now that I am about to turn 40, I feel as if life has just begun, I have the urge to do something, now I have a sense - I am at an age where I can distinguish between right and wrong. People say - life is a struggle. But, I think - life is simple. I feel like I'm in the big university of life now. Every emotion, event is beautiful. I think of life as formless, I don't think of it as magnificent. The eagerness to understand life is still added. 

This cover i.e. my beauty, name after birth, nickname after success - all are lies.

Who am I specifically? I am the soul, but the form that the body takes may be different.

People say - 'I am beautiful, I am famous.' All these are not material things. It makes people arrogant and delusional. Atman always resides in Sakshi Bhava. When you know the soul, you are witnessing your deeds, name, beauty. Sometimes success is achieved, sometimes failure! But no one has the courage to touch your soul. That is why those who know say, know your soul. The body is one, the soul is one. 

Nothing is permanent, everything is temporary. Material comforts, sorrow, pain, beauty – all are temporary. Within us, the Mahabharata is going on between the soul and the body. Today in Kali Yuga, the Mahabharata is going on within every human being. I am no longer touched by these things. Know the soul, for that you have to practice, you have to become a sadhu. It is a sadhana for a person to be constantly in the same area. A heroine's life span is only 7-8 years on screen, I have reached 25 years. Perhaps this is also a practice for me. Is it a joke to reign for 25 years as the lead heroine? 

Once upon a time I used to work on a very busy schedule, shooting up to 5/7 films a day. After shooting through the night, I used to go to dubbing in the afternoon. Being busy like that, I thought, is this my happiness? Of course not. Where is the happiness? A man who knows the soul is happy everywhere. It was through my curiosity and inquisitive nature that I came to know the soul.

The world is not permanent, it is karma, we are in transit to reach a destination. If this is understood, no one should be sad. If we can't look at our body, how can we look at the world? Let us realize how many times the cells in the body are born before we are disappointed that the country was not formed, the society was not formed, etc. We have been running, where are we going? Not anywhere. Why rush if there is only one place to reach? Won't you go slowly? 

Even in politics, I became disgusted after seeing the game of infatuation, confusion and fooling. Even while standing in the election, the hopes of the people and the agreement of the leaders were completely reversed. I have always spoken the truth. Especially in this country those who are based on truth and facts are always left behind. Cultivators of lies, funders and sowers of delusion are at the center. People who gain power by lying are especially powerless people. I went into politics to be stupid on purpose. 

This physical body has to be left behind. But when to leave the body? It is in man's hands, it is determined. The engineering within man determines. What the mind commands, that is what happens. This soul is the universe, whatever we think and act in the universe, that is what happens.

If you invite sorrow, sorrow will come; if you invite happiness, happiness will come. There is still time to think that this is how people will remember me after my death. However, whatever I have transformed in the film industry, I have to do it for the country as well. As people remember Yogamaya after contributing to the country, let me be remembered in the same way. It doesn't matter whether people remember me or forget me, I will be known as a character who raised voice against wrong, injustice and oppression after my death. But I am such a person.

Even now many people tremble to call Rekha Thapa a superstar. But, yesterday, a man who is doing two films is called a superstar, but a woman is not. You don't earn money to write that 'Rekha Thapa is the first superstar in the film history of Nepal'. A Mahanayak even if someone hasn't acted in a film for 10 years? Why? Because he is a man. I have a lot of role in terms of contribution in the film.

I have not only become myself, I have brought new heroes from every film, from actors to technicians, I have made directors, I have given jobs. I have made films whether I am drowning or rising. What did that male artist do? If I had acted like I did, people could have made that man 'God'. I am not only a filmmaker, I am also a producer of life, leadership does not only mean becoming yourself, but also giving birth to other leaders like you. I want to do this in politics too. I am a character who stands as an example and a pillar for transformation. 

hola I was not born during Yogamaya. My struggle was not more difficult than Yogamaya! I fought with men, played tricks with society. I speak/speak to a woman in pain. When speaking like that, various accusations are made, personal character assassination is done.

The time of Yogamaya and now may be different. However, the pain and struggle are the same. At that time Yogamaya fought a battle on the issue of child marriage, even now I always raise the issue of child marriage in my video interview titled 'Second Chapter'. Rekha Thapa is constantly fighting the same battle as Yogamaya, but people don't see me as a heroine, they get stuck in the guise of my heroine. 

I already had the nature of leadership. The thinking was that if I am a hit, others must be a hit along with me. Hit others along with yourself, save the producer. Everything around me is established. In Jajarkot, I brought a girl who had never watched TV and played a film. But what is the contribution of those male heroes? What gave society? Shouldn't society be proud of me? At least in your country there is a way to impress your daughters! I gave 'back to back hit films' continuously for 10 years. My face was wanted on the poster of the film. Many movie posters have only my photo. 

The heroes of my time are now playing the role of a father, I am still playing the role of a hero. Recently, I acted as an 18-year-old girl in the drama 'Meera'. I am playing Bipin Karki's sister in the upcoming film 'Vhytika'. But, why are they still not calling me a superstar? In the history of Nepali film industry, not even Hero has such a long screen life. Where have the heroes and heroines who came with me gone, but I am constantly in the same freshness and speed. Even now I am still in the lead role, I am becoming the heroine. Who else is playing, producing, bringing actors?