A 35-year-old woman from Banke was gang-raped at the age of 12 in 2059. The then government forces came to the house and forcibly took him away. Later, when there was no one at home, he started forcing himself by visiting regularly.

For one year, she could not sleep at home because of fear and slept in the forest near her house at night. Married at the age of 16. Now she has two daughters .

She says that not only from the army, she was sexually assaulted by the rebel side during the armed conflict. As he was working at the first aid center in the village, the then rebel side captured him from his home. She says that even those who were injured were forced in the name of treatment.

"Who should I blame, I suffered from both sides," she said, "I can't tell anyone about my problem." Even my husband does not know about this.' 

She said that she could not disclose this matter to anyone for fear of spoiling her family and relationship. "Getting justice is far away, what kind of pain is there if you can't express what you've experienced?" Only those who experience it know,' she said. Many women became victims of sexual violence during the conflict. The victim has not received treatment yet. Even after a long time since the peace agreement, the grievances of the victims remain the same.

A 34-year-old woman from Baijnath in Banke was raped by the army at the age of 12 at Basgarhi in Bardia. She still hasn't forgotten the incident. She said that she is suffering from mental stress along with health problems due to sexual violence.

So far she is taking psychosocial counseling . Now she is married. Has two children . That incident still haunts him. When her husband came to know about the incident at the age of 12, she had to undergo mental torture. There is one health problem. I am always getting mental torture from my husband about the same thing," she said, "Even if I wanted to, I could not forget that time." 

Similarly, a 35-year-old woman from Banke was gang-raped at the age of 15. She was surrounded by the army as a shepherd. No one heard her screams of fear. When she came to Hos, she was naked in the forest. She reached home with fear. She told everything to her mother at home. Until now, she has not told the incident to anyone other than her mother. He is under more stress because he cannot identify the person who sexually assaulted him. She is shocked when she sees that the army is now in the village.

She could not complete her studies after this incident. Now they are married and have grown up children, but she said that she is also suffering from mental stress along with health problems due to sexual violence. "I have a problem with my head, I went to Kathmandu twice for treatment, but my problem has not subsided, I have to go to the hospital for treatment," she said -break The husband of a 40-year-old woman from Kohalpur was made missing by the army in 2061. She was gang-raped. Even now he is unwell . She suffered physical and mental torture during that time. But she still does not speak openly about the sexual violence that happened to her. She only describes herself as a victim of torture. 

He still needs the help of others to walk. As a drug addict, he has to take medicine worth Rs 5,000 a month. "No one understands our problem," she said, "who will judge us when we tell about the sexual violence we have received." Why should you hurt yourself again by re-opening old wounds now!' 

Parvati Budha of Baijnath still has bullet fragments in her body. She suffered extreme torture and violence during the conflict. Even a three-month-old baby had to be thrown away. The army made her disappear for 14 months when she went for a three-month pregnancy check-up. Three months of pregnancy was also lost. She spent 12 months in jail. Physically he is still unwell. She cannot walk unless she takes 'pain killer'. Now he has 18 and 12 year old sons . Husband is in Malaysia for foreign employment . Old wounds still haunt him. 

'How much torture we got, how much pain we suffered, there is no account of it . But it is our pain to not be able to say that. Even so, there is no one to listen," Budha said. "Women have a lot of problems in narrating the incidents of sexual violence experienced during the conflict. If we look at all the problems with one eye, it is not fair for us . We need justice according to the pain. Budha says that it would be much easier if the government had made methods for the treatment of victims of sexual violence and provided only assistance in the treatment.

Most of the women who suffered sexual violence in the conflict were not able to come and file a complaint themselves due to the fear of family and society. Because of that, the woman was forced to file a complaint under another heading. As a result, the victims of sexual violence have not been able to receive any assistance from the state.

"Not all women who have been subjected to sexual violence have filed a complaint, their health is still being treated with medicine," said Chandrakala Upreti, president of the conflict-affected women's national network Banke, "There is concern that there will not be an official who understands the sensitivity of victim-friendly women in the commission". Some crimes are unforgivable. There is no justice by just giving money, the victim should also feel the justice, it is important to prioritize the problem of women who have been subjected to sexual violence and keep it confidential.' However, the conflict victims have not been able to get treatment because they do not have an identity card. "They are forced into violence. Now you are in the dilemma of dying or living. Not only after the health check, the victim is not able to get treatment. The treatment is expensive,' said Shobha BC, the founder president of Banke, a victim of conflict and a single woman According to Seema Choudhary, a psychosocial consultant, women who have suffered sexual violence in the conflict have not been able to come out of their pain more than other conflict victims.

'On the one hand, it is indescribable to hide the pain you have experienced due to the lack of guarantee of privacy and security, and on the other hand, the pain of not being able to get treatment even if you have a health problem,' she said, 'meeting them once a week and working to get information about their health. I am . That in itself is not enough.

Even though this incident happened due to the situation of the conflict, advocate Basant Gautam said that many women could not come forward because of social stigma. It has been stated that compensation can be done only with the consent of the victim in cases of human rights violations. Now the question is how the Commission will move forward in the matter of privacy and justice,' said Gautam, 'but the main question is how it will be implemented in the matter of privacy.'

According to him, one incident in Bardia has reached the United Nations. The incident reached the UN committee to send a message that victims should not be deprived of justice because sexual violence is a serious crime under international law. The transitional justice process has been stalled for a long time . 

Disappearance Investigation and Truth Commission has only done the work of collecting complaints . According to the interests of the conflict victims and the international community and the order given by the Supreme Court, the law on both commissions has been amended recently. After the amendment of the law, the process of filling the posts in both the commissions has also progressed . On March 30, 2080, the government formed a committee to recommend the appointment of officials in two commissions related to transitional justice. It has been 10 months since the recommendation committee was formed.  According to rights activist Bhola Mahat, it would be appropriate if the process of recommending office bearers proceeds quickly after the amendment of the