Dear Udeep! 6 years of marriage have passed without knowing. In this letter, I am sharing some things that I have not told you, that I really want to say. Surely you are reading the pages of a magazine. How old was I, a 22-year-old girl when I was married.

Where was I thinking about getting married? We fell in love and bonded in a short time. Even though we were tied, our relationship was never tied to each other. Goreto, who was walking alone, became wider when there were two. We entered the highway of happiness. 

Udeep ji! Loving you is the right decision of my life. If you are not married! Maybe I'll regret it. Will I ever have a lover like you? I think - don't lose wealth.  Udeep Shrestha, whom I met at the beginning of

, is the person I like. But his relatives doubted, 'Where will love always remain the same?' Udeep ji! From the day I met you till now, I have changed, You are becoming more and more 'gentle'. There was no change between being a lover and being a husband. This love became deeper and deeper. I never compliment you in front. It feels like it's going to explode. May you know that I have decorated you like this in my heart. 

Udeep ji! Don't let me know. Just loving is enough. I really like your loving nature. Sometimes I ask, 'Why are you still the same as you were when I met you?' You smile and say, 'I am like that.' 

Udeep ji! How romantic are you? You keep making people feel love that I don't know how to express myself. Show your presence. But why can't I show this thing? I try to do it, but why is it difficult? I did not eat food, how much water did I drink? What to eat? What don't you eat? You keep a healthy account of all that. Our age difference is 13 years. Not only the age, but also the profession. Growing up society and community is also different. But you weaved with love in such a way that how beautiful it looked in the thread of the relationship. 

Looking back, those days seem strange. I just finished plus two. And I participated in 'Miss Plus to Nepal Pageant'. After winning the pageant, he got an offer for the film 'Nai Nabhannu La 4'. I'll join our conversation here. When I first heard your name through my uncle's daughter. That too from the patterns of appreciation. Taking a model's name, she said about their group's doctor that I looked up your name on my Facebook. Later you joined. I proudly showed my sister that the boy she described was my friend on Facebook. 

I had to lose weight in 'Nai Na Bhannu L 4'. When I was thinking about how to do it, my sister again suggested your name to me, 'You are the doctor I told you. Even if he is abroad, he can give advice. How did that coincidence turn into love? I want to remember that. We had a patient-doctor relationship. That too through social media. Where have we met in person? In our conversation I felt, 'How gentle you are.' Your simplicity was the reason for the continuation of the conversation. If someone tried to enter my space, I would block them right away. But with your nature, the path became wider. 

You came to Nepal in 2018, said let's meet. For 6 months I made various excuses. Now it's too much. which has helped me. Why am I bothering him for a date? I asked myself. I finally decided to meet you. I promised to meet only for 15 minutes. I also declined your offer for coffee. I told you that there will be a funko in the car. I didn't see you for 15 minutes. Dulai was the only one who looked out the window from the car. What to say if you meet face to face? How to speak? didn't know Without seeing my face, he asked me to take a selfie. You made me feel comfortable even though you were uncomfortable. From the second day, our meeting began to fade. With the meeting, the distance of the relationship also started to decrease.

How did you feel about me at the first meeting? I did not say. But today I want to say, when I met you, you were very beautiful to my eyes. Even more so for the mind's eye. You have never done anything or behaved to upset me. Maybe you could even tax coffee. did not I was touched by this.

Udeep ji! Now when I understand this society, when I see the situation, when I hear the problems of male characters, I am really scared. I even jokingly tell you, 'I gambled. The ace trial was over.' How did you get to the wedding? I have my reasons for that too. Wise, not just simple. You had patience. I remember waiting for 3 hours in the parking lot while my shoot was going on without letting anyone know. He used to come with roses whenever he came! He respected what I said. He would accept the decision. That was enough to steal my heart at that time. If there was anyone better than me, it was you. I got married based on that thought. But that person could not be the same. Udeep ji! You should be even more shy than that. 

Marriage is a companionship with mutual feelings. A plant cannot grow without fertilizing. Udeep ji! You, too, were showered with encouragement and support. Both of us have changed. You're becoming like me, I'm becoming like you. We both got used to each other's good habits. Perhaps this is the reason why life is beautiful!

Udeep ji! Marriage is not easy. I thought before doing that. You have to compromise. However, how beautiful are the compromises we make for each other. Those who do not harm each other. Instead they share happiness. Not knowing how to properly compromise a relationship is also irritating. Compromise should also be done with friends. Rather, it should be loving. Don't put one down and the other up. Why not compromise to help each other grow and flourish? No, Udeep ji. Our relationship is not like husband and wife. It's like a friend. Sweetness is also in this. 

I go to Maita almost every day. That's where the key lies. When he doesn't go one day, he calls and asks when will he come? You fill the gap when I'm not around or when I'm on a shoot. You are going instead of me. My father and you are like friends.

I imagined my life partner first. What should his temperament be? When I thought about it, I used to reach Nikroyl - like my own father. You are exactly the life partner I imagined. Who never thinks himself great. Equally respects the feelings of others. which you have been doing to me. 

Udeep ji! Dreams never end, they keep coming one after the other. We dreamed together. I put here the person who does not live in Nepal. Stay here only on the condition of getting married. You accepted my condition. Lived in Nepal forever. Our hospital, Healthy Choice, is one of our dreams. We will take it where it needs to be taken, together. I will have a lot of support. 

I have never expressed love in words. But if you are reading this letter, you will surely be happy. I am very happy to have a friend like you, Udeep Ji.